The Villain Wants to Live Quietly

Chapter 5. Tanya Ansberg (6)

Tanya Ansberg is a girl who, surprisingly, belongs to the naive side.

Her way of speaking is light for a count’s daughter, and she seems to have a strong tendency to run around, but this is only an outward aspect.

Helene Ansberg, the hostess of the Ansberg family, valued elegance and courtesy more than anyone else, and Tanya, as if it were not her daughter, resembled her mother.

The word “knowledgeable” does not only have a negative connotation.

As if to disprove this, she places great importance on human-to-human ties.

If you think that your relationship with someone will be twisted when you put forward your desire, boldly put that desire to rest. This was her specialty.

But at the same time, it also meant that when a certain relationship was complicatedly entangled, one’s heart was pushed to the back of the list.

‘Father’s words were right… … .’

what did it fit? Tanya tried hard not to bring it out of her mouth.

The moment he spat those words out of his mouth, or at least into his heart, it seemed like they would spread out of control.

It was, so to speak, a spark. It didn’t burn anything and didn’t even have a shape, but when it grew, I was sure that I wouldn’t even be able to stop it myself.

At that time, even if water was poured and calmed down, there was no way that the wildfire that had spread could be extinguished by a single person.

That would mean it wasn’t even a forest fire in the first place. At most, it would be just a small bonfire.

‘I wondered if he was standing in the garden… There is none.’

She is not particularly inclined to enjoy fortune. Whether it’s the moon or a flower, if it’s beautiful, it’s just the nature of appreciating the object as it is beautiful.

The sensibility of enjoying the atmosphere and the air around her was quite far from that of Tanya Ansberg.

It was the same reason I looked at the scenery outside over the railing.

I just heard that someone often goes out for a walk in the garden at night as a gift, so I just tried to find the traces of that person.

Unsatisfied with the fact that her performance was not good, she couldn’t take her eyes off the dim garden with a lingering look in her eyes.

Perhaps if I had been a little more distracted, I might not have even heard the maid’s voice that came later.

“My lady, you should go to bed… … .”

“I’ll stay like this for a little while longer. You go and rest.”

Rell, who had been by her side until late, cautiously suggested that she sleep, but it seemed to be of no use.

The atmosphere of the owner, whose eyes were fixed on the moonlight-soaked garden, was quite different from usual.

Being on the quick-witted side, she was able to notice this fact, but not saying anything was largely influenced by her personality.

“… If that is your will.”

If she was a lady-in-waiting of Sogaju living somewhere, she might have added a word here and stayed there silently until the end.

However, it was far from the loyalty that Rell was seeking.

She thought that it was her mission as a servant to follow her master’s words with faith. Unless the owner’s life is at stake, like yesterday, he tends to prioritize the owner’s orders.

It was based on this point that he did not dare to reveal the confused owner’s mind and did not say a word to the owner even though he was afraid of harming his body.

Some may say that this is not true loyalty, but… Well. It’s just a matter of personal belief.

“Lell.”

“Yes, lady.”

Her new model, who was about to leave the room after saying hello, was caught by the voice of the owner.

As her gaze shifted, she caught sight of Tanya staring at her from the garden.

‘ah… … .’

The two eyes, which were full of life even when walking around the garden with someone, were after the light faded even further.

It may have been to hide it that he never looked away from the balcony while he was in this room.

Inadvertently, absurd reasoning without any basis or reason circulated in her head.

“sleep well. I couldn’t even say goodbye.”

“… Yes. I hope you have a good night’s sleep, too.”

“thanks.”

Short, short words that are no different from normal greetings. However, the emotions contained in it had a strange resonance.

To Rell, that sentence sounded like her last cry to not ask in detail.

But what was strange was that it felt as if a voice begging for help was included in that cry.

It was the first time. Being assigned as her lady-in-waiting, feeling helpless like this.

Even when monsters appeared in front of me, I didn’t fall into this sense of helplessness, thinking that all I could do was protect the owner’s life.

And, it was also an unpleasant feeling that I would never feel again in my life.

“miss.”

“yes?”

Tanya, who was still combing her wet hair, turned her head again at the voice calling her.

Her hair shone softly in the moonlight that came through the window.

However, thinking that the scene somehow seemed to contain tears, Lel’s mood calmed down again.

‘The lady who always said that hair is a woman’s life… … .’

Tanya was a girl who was very meticulous about taking care of her hair.

At first, Lel wondered what was going on, as such a young lady refused to wait, saying that she did not need to wash her hair today.

Have you ever learned a new management method? I had such trivial thoughts for a while.

However, it seemed that I knew it vaguely now. Perhaps there was an intention in that action, like the way she had been trying hard not to make eye contact with herself all day.

Even things that others might dismiss as mere whims look different to the lady-in-waiting who has been watching her all along.

“I don’t have much to say because I’m not good at speaking, but… … .”

“… are you okay. Tell me.”

If it was her usual, she might have jokingly replied, “I know.”

Lel felt that Tanya’s behavior of calmly giving her a glance while hiding her dark expression as if nothing had happened was very foreign to her.

But at the same time, I also had this thought.

There would be nothing more embarrassing than that if I couldn’t say anything anymore because I was wrapped up in this strange sense of deja vu.

The determination that allowed her to continue her unspoken words came from these small convictions.

“Please do not be afraid.”

“… … .”

“Please remember that no matter or relationship in the world can collapse or be disturbed as easily as the lady’s concerns.”

A subtle sentence like catching floating clouds. However, as Tanya listened silently to her words, a small discoloration appeared in Tanya’s eyes.

Was there any enlightenment? It was a very faint light, but Rell did not miss even that.

However, this was the boundary of what she could do as a court lady.

His intelligent master would be able to fully understand the meaning of these words.

With such vague anticipation, she reduced her backbiting.

“Then I am… I’m sorry for the sudden unexpected words. miss.”

“no. Everyone does that sometimes.”

The two of them pretended not to know the meaning of each other’s words and passed the conversation moderately.

It was a kind of consideration.

Lell, who didn’t want to confuse his master’s mind any more, wanted to give a small advice.

Tanya didn’t want to show her offspring any more than this, and at the same time, she wanted a little comfort.

Could it be that the owner is the seed?

Their actions for each other are a little clunky, and they lack a few words, but they can still convey their sincerity.

There was a bond between the two that was oddly different from bonds like friendship or affection.

“Lell.”

“Yes, lady.”

Tanya’s voice catches her trying to leave the room again like a deja vu.

However, Lel felt that the rhyme was quite different from before. Although it may be your own hopeful observation, for some reason I felt certain.

“thanks. sleep well.”

“It was nothing. I wish you a good night.”

Lell responded in a calm voice and bowed his head slightly.

Eventually, Tanya carefully opened the door and stared at her disappearing back. A faint smile formed on her lips as the door closed with a small creak.

‘I must have been born with human clothes.’

The rippled mind suddenly became calm like a calm lake.

I didn’t think I would fall asleep right away, so when I looked up at the sky again, the dark night sky suddenly took on a strange color.

The color, which was neither black nor blue, reminded me of someone for no reason, and my face naturally heated up.

Shaking her head hastily, Tanya closed the window to the balcony and returned to the bunk to lie down.

As the soft touch of the futon wrapped around my body, I felt exhausted.

There was something I wanted to think about a little more, but I decided to stop for today.

* * * * * * *

Today, it seems that her maid is in pain.

It was a small doubt that plagued Ludwig all the way until just before going to bed.

“Paula.”

“Yes, Bocchan.”

An answer that is no different than usual. However, the fact that he felt that his voice had no pitch was not entirely because of his mood.

“Did something bad happen today?”

“I don’t know what you mean.”

“Uh, um… … .”

If I gave the wrong answer for some reason, wouldn’t it be like digging my own grave?

Even though there is no basis, sometimes there are times when an individual’s intuition makes a more accurate judgment than any objective evidence or reason.

It was for this reason that he swallowed back talk.

“It’s okay if it’s because of the mood. Just go back and rest.”

In the end, Ludwig decided to avoid the current situation.

He is a courtesan whom he cherishes and thinks like an older sister, but there is no pulpit for him to listen to her complaints this late at night.

Isn’t there a lot of time anyway? It might be better to talk calmly when the sun rises tomorrow.

So, while ignoring the reality, he ordered her to step back, while making strange excuses inside.

“… … .”

But that seems to have been the cause.

The look in her eyes was the same, but the momentum she radiated was a bit stern.

Paula does not go out with her eyes fixed on the owner and keeps the place where she stood silently.

In the end, it was Ludwig who raised the white flag first in the silent protest.

“Isn’t it because of me?”

“I do not know. Rather, why do you think I would be in a bad mood because of you?”

“ah.”

A sigh I couldn’t swallow escaped my mouth.

In fact, it was as if my feet were numb and I confessed. Although even Ludwig himself could not know if he was really guilty.

“That… If you’re angry, it’s mostly because of me.”

Soon, what came out of Ludwig’s mouth was a line so servile that he wondered what it would be like from the position of the owner.

A small, unbearable laugh leaked out of Paula’s mouth at the carefully spoken words while watching the servant’s notice.

“Puhuh… .”

“Are you laughing now?”

“I’m sorry. Because the master’s words seemed too servile… Pooh!”

“To be servile… … .”

Ludwig thought that he would lose his appearance even after he spoke, but it was Ludwig who wondered if he had heard such a voice.

I wasn’t even angry when I was angry. Should I express my regret? No, this doesn’t seem like a good feeling.

“Uhm… I’m sorry, Bocchan.”

After struggling to hold back her laughter for a long time, she wiped the tears from her eyes and managed to regain her composure.

It’s what I felt while watching it all the time, but I thought that my owner was a person who really didn’t fit in standing above others.

Of course, it wasn’t meant in a negative way. To put it into words, should I say that he is a person who is very good at counting other people’s hearts?

Everyone who stands above others sometimes has to lead, whether they like it or not, while ignoring the feelings of some of the crowd.

It was also the most unsuitable look for a man named Ludwig.

At least from what Paula had seen so far, he was the kind of person who stepped out and tried to relieve her when she was in a bad mood, and tried to embrace and understand even the inside of a mere handmaid.

“Whoa… It’s done. Your mood seems to be off. right?”

“Yes. It is thanks to you, Bocchan.”

“In the end, I didn’t even hear the reason… I guess I should think that good is good.”

Ludwig was a person who prioritized results over process.

It doesn’t mean he’s a consequentialist, it just means that he has a temperament that he can tolerate most things as long as the results are good.

“You have eased my mood, so in return, I will serve you warm tea so that you can sleep comfortably.”

“It’s good.”

Ludwig, who had knowledge of the other side of the world, did not think it would be nice to have caffeinated tea at night, but it was just a daily routine that he had become accustomed to here.

‘Maybe I’m getting some wind.’

It will take some time for Paula to return, so he steps out onto the balcony to take a look at the garden.

He smiled bitterly at the thought of a lady-in-waiting who was hard to please, but he also thought that this was his relationship with her.

Under the same roof, the bond between the two masters and servants with slightly different atmospheres was quietly deepening.