The Woman Found the Will I Wrote

65 – Conflict 3

Rumi hid in the grass and stared blankly at Shien’s figure.

With blue hair that shines beautifully in the moonlight.

Smooth and beautiful skin, perhaps thanks to good daily care.

Of course, as expected from his job as a knight, there were quite a few small wounds all over his hands.

‘She was so pretty that even he thought she was pretty.’

Cien seems to depict a human utopia… No, to be precise, she was smiling brightly as if she had gathered her ideal world into one place.

‘… I envy you.’

I don’t know if it’s because she knows better than anyone else that no matter what she does, she can’t be like that, or because it’s a comparison.

Like a person who has been subjected to all kinds of humiliation, she had no choice but to keep lowering her face to the ground.

‘… Unlike the student council president, I only cause trouble… ‘It’s of no help and has no value.’

In a way, it was a natural choice for Dern to abandon himself and choose Shien.

… When that thought occurred to her, she was instantly overcome with tears.

She remembered what Dern had said to her earlier, and with great effort she was able to put it to rest.

‘… Yeah, she said Dern was okay. Huh … It will be fine.’

If she thought rationally, there was no way she would be okay.

Perhaps it was because there was no element other than this that could support her spirit.

Looking ahead with blurry eyes, she deliberately pretended not to notice the bad things and tried to accept them.

‘And the student council president, Shien, is actually Dern’s fiancé, right? So, it’s natural to date like that… ‘Yes, of course.’

While I was continuing my thoughts, my heart burst out in tears again, and my thoughts stopped for a moment.

As she always did since she was young, she tried to ‘act’ to be positive and awkwardly raised the corner of her mouth, thinking forcibly as if it was nothing.

‘So now calm down and go back to your room and give Dern a muffin or a loaf of bread… ‘

Then I tried to escape from this situation by changing the subject in my head.

She caught sight of Shien suddenly crashing his lips against her Dern’s.

“…… “

At that moment, her mind turns white and the sight before her eyes begins to spin.

I don’t know if it was because I was really dizzy or if it was a defense mechanism because I didn’t want to accept reality.

First of all, it was true that I did not want to accept anything, so I closed my eyes tightly and pressed my body against her.

‘… Hey, you’re my fiancé, so that level of skinship is natural. Because I’m your fiancé… ‘

She deliberately brought up the fact that Shien was her fiancé and that she was okay, she was okay, and she was repeating this in her mind.

Suddenly a thought entered her mind.

– If such a perfect fiancé exists, I guess I don’t need it in the first place.

Let such thoughts sprout.

The ‘facts’ that I had tried my best to ignore until now began to pour out explosively, as if a dam had broken.

‘I’m covered in dust because I don’t even take care of it well.’

[A perfect person who has been well taken care of since childhood.]

‘Rather than being of help, I am only a nuisance.’

[He is the student council president and has a great family background.]

‘A being that causes harm to those around it just by existing.’

[A person who is helpful just by being next to him.]

Realistic stories are coming to the point where just thinking about them makes me vomit.

I bit my lip, thinking I couldn’t hold on any longer.

Because everything, every situation seemed to be telling me to leave Dern’s side.

As a result, her breathing became suffocating, and her body collapsed, suffering as if a nail was being driven into her heart.

No matter how hard she tried, the reality that she could never change was just pain.

That’s why she was trying to suppress the tears that were about to fall and was about to get out of her place.

“…… “

She came face to face with Dern.

At that moment, she was so embarrassed that she hiccuped without realizing it and looked at Dern.

Dern has a rather complex expression and she notices what is looking at her.

‘…… ‘

I know.

If she just pretends not to notice, Dern… Because he is nice, he will comfort me in this situation.

So, it might be a rational decision to cry loudly like this and allow Dern’s full attention to come to oneself.

‘… Because I like Dern.’

She wants Dern to continue with Sien, who is close to perfection, and not with this trashy self… Because she wanted to continue her relationship.

She spoke while trying hard to hold back her tears.

“Two, two, sleep well… “It suits you.”

Her tears keep falling, and it is difficult for her to speak because she is choking.

Although her voice was usually quiet, she didn’t stutter to this degree.

She continued speaking, thinking that she was strangely out of breath and unable to speak.

“Because I’m your fiancé… “I guess that’s what it is, right?”

She thinks she doesn’t know what she’s talking about because she has to say something she doesn’t mean to say.

She continued to say the words that immediately came to mind without thinking.

I’m not sure if this is the right choice… She had no other choice, so she just kept throwing out her words.

“… Then I will go now, so… Those two continue… continue.”

Her heavy breathing eventually clogs her throat, preventing her from speaking any more.

Stupid body.

She really doesn’t think she can help, and she coughs and tries to continue her story.

“Rumi.”

She slowly approached Dern, as if she thought she couldn’t be left like this.

I paused for a moment at Dern’s actions.

Wordlessly, she stretched out her hand toward Dern and shouted loudly to prevent him from coming to her.

“Oh, don’t come!”

Dern pauses for a moment at those words.

… Ironically, I actually wanted him to keep coming.

It was just her heart, and her mouth kept spewing out reasons why he should not come.

“Everything… Because I hate you. Don’t come… !”

Now I’m thinking about it, but she’s not just spewing out random things that she’s saying.

Not my own happiness.

She realized that she was speaking for Dern’s happiness.

Strangely enough, when she said she hated him, she realized that she really liked him.

For his sake, I slowly backed away and pushed him away more forcefully.

“Calm down.”

Even though he pushes him away, Dern comes to him like he always did and extends his hand.

In the past, you would have just wanted someone to hold your hand, so you would have grabbed it.

‘Now that I know that if I become unhappy, Dern can become happy… ‘

I couldn’t hold the hand he held out.

So, I looked at his hand for a moment, closed my eyes tightly, and ran outside.

‘… Let’s run away like this and hide in a place where Dern isn’t around. After just a little while, you will forget about me. Therefore … If you stay alone like before.’

When the word “Alone” Passes by, tears suddenly fall, even though I have no intention of crying.

I thought my tears were getting in my way, so I violently wiped them away and ran away, pretending I was okay.

“Stop.”

I can still hear Dern’s voice.

I shouted ‘no’ to stop following that voice.

Dern spoke with a sigh, as if he had no intention of giving up.

“… Tell me in advance. Sorry.”

I’m sorry… ? Just when I was wondering why I was suddenly saying that, I had no idea why.

Suddenly, a strong shock hits the back of his neck, and his vision turns black.

“…… ?”

I couldn’t figure out what kind of situation this was, so I tried to ask a question.

Before that, he lost consciousness and everything just disappeared from his mind.

* * * * *

I hit Rumi on the back of her neck as she was running away, knocking her out, and then she sighed.

To be honest, I originally tried to bring Rumi back in a more proper way.

‘Rumi’s magic resistance is better than I thought.’

Her magic didn’t work at all, so she had no choice but to use physical methods.

I definitely think that the emotionally awakened heroine is overly difficult to deal with, and she holds Rumi carefully.

‘Then what should we do?’

I can’t even figure out where to start.

I am struggling with the sighs that keep coming out of my mouth.

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Sien and Espin, who were following behind, said something to me one by one.

“… Lord Dern. “Is Rumi okay?”

“Sorry about that… “

I ignored Espin’s words for now and nodded to Shien.

Shien looks down at Rumi with a somewhat complicated expression on her face, then sighs and continues her words.

“I think today’s date should end like this. I feel like I want to be with Lord Dern a little longer… It seems like today is not the day. “I will come back next time.”

“I’m sorry.”

“No. “I was expecting it to some extent, so it’s okay.”

Expected?

It was a somewhat foreign word in the current situation, so I secretly looked at Shien.

Shien slightly lowered her head as if she didn’t want to answer differently.

“But since I’m still human, I’m a little angry, so I’ll solve it with this.”

He grumbled a little, but then he crashed his lips against mine and smiled brightly, just like he did earlier.