There Is No Spring in the Stolen Field

59. worst

The promise she tells me is…

It must have been the promise of the day when Seria and I parted ways and Homeron Village was burned down without a trace.

A promise that she would come back to me so that she would wait for her.

In conclusion, I broke it.

I had no intention of justifying myself using Luna as an excuse.

I didn’t keep my promise to Seria, and I formed a relationship with Luna.

Thinking of Seria, I shouldn’t have allowed Luna to approach me, but I couldn’t be that harsh.

It’s a mistake for Luna, but it’s also me who cast the unique magic.

It was also me who fell for her words and fell in sweet love.

While I was doing this, the fact that Seria had waited only for me became a sharp dagger and pierced my heart.

“A person named Yuwol. He might not be someone worth waiting for…”

I spoke weakly.

“Sirius. I don’t know what your intentions are, but if you’re trying to gossip about Yu-Wol, please stop.”

Seria stopped walking and spoke.

“What would you do if that person reappeared in a bad shape?”

I knew Seria was offended, but I didn’t stop asking questions nonetheless.

“That’s not for you, Sirius, to judge. And no matter what form you appear in…”

Seria murmured and answered.

“Because Yu-Wol is my everything. So I can accept it.”

I hurried the steps she had matched and got ahead of me.

It was clear that he was offended by my words.

Naturally, I matched her steps and followed her, looking at her back.

Seria and I sat down to eat, but didn’t say anything to each other.

Mr. Yoo. If I had to say it, it would be because I was talking badly about myself.

I also ate and dried, only moving my fork and not touching the food very much.

It didn’t feel very appetizing.

There was still plenty of food left in the bowl, but Seria got up and disappeared with the words that she would go first.

It seemed that her feelings took precedence over surveillance.

Left alone, I stared blankly at the empty seat she had risen for a while.

Returning to my room, I threw myself on the bed without even changing my clothes.

sudden thought.

Shall we just talk about everything and go back?

I am June.

The ones who killed your parents were humans, not demons.

All I want is for you to stop being a hero.

ha…

I buried my face in the pillow.

From Seria’s point of view, I’m just a dirty first love. Bad ass who didn’t keep his promise.

I thought it was nothing more and nothing less.

Even though she said she would listen, it became rude to even say my wishes.

where did it go wrong

I really… really… I just wanted you back.

I imagined what would happen if I went to the Demon Realm and confessed that I became a demon at the hands of Luna.

Due to Seria’s personality, she would never say, ‘Ah~ I see~ That can’t be helped.’

On the day I find out that I could die at the point of the devil’s finger.

They’re probably going to do whatever it takes to turn me back into a human.

Even if it means killing the demon king.

And there was no way Luna could miss the point of the sword.

There was no way I would leave the person responsible for twisting the relationship between me and Seria.

The fact that Seria hurt Luna.

Luna hurting Seria.

It was too harsh for me.

But the two are opposites. Daughter of the Hero and the Demon King.

Even if the country did not exist, it was destined to bite each other someday.

It was painful.

It broke my heart that it was best for me to let the proof process end with Seria’s failure while gnawing at the two of them.

I thought that if I became this strong, I would be able to hold something with my own hands.

Could it be that the things I was trying to catch were the stars floating too far away?

Or is my power still too weak to change anything?

But Seria’s words of trust in me today broke my heart.

I’ve already been defiled, but demonic blood runs through my blood.

I tore my hair.

It was then.

“Dog star?”

Someone called my name from the terrace beyond the window.

It was Luna.

Seeing me clutching my head and making an expression about to cry, Luna came straight into my room.

“What’s wrong? Where does it hurt?”

It was Luna’s voice that sounded urgent.

huh. so painful.

“Hey Luna…”

I took her into her arms without saying anything.

“What’s going on… What’s going on… Huh? Talk to me, Sirius.”

I, who felt like my heart would be torn apart by Seria, found comfort in Luna’s arms.

I felt like a real piece of trash.

But I am also human.

When I was having a hard time, I wanted to lean on someone else.

Someone who knows the whole truth and is the only one I can open up to.

I’ve come to rely on Luna all the time.

“…I… where did I go wrong…?”

“What are you talking about? That’s it.”

Luna asked again as if she didn’t understand.

“I hate myself. It’s Luna.”

It was sincere. It was disgusting.

“I hate myself so much, what should I do?”

Luna patted my back.

“You’re a warrior.”

Seria spoke in a cool voice.

“What did that b*tch say to you again, Sirius?”

Luna’s gaze turned to the other room.

“don’t do it…”

I chanted.

“what?”

“Don’t touch me.”

I cried and talked to Luna.

“If you touch Seria, I won’t be alone.”

Because the truth is already too harsh for Seria.

Luna. You don’t even have to bully the kid.

Luna dropped me from her arms.

“…Sirius…why are you on his side?”

“I’m not taking sides.”

Luna covered my face with both hands.

“Are you telling me to keep my eyes open and watch the woman who made my man like this?”

Her slightly cold hand wiped the tears from my eyes.

“I told you. Even if it rings, only I will cry. Making you smile. I will make you smile.”

I could feel the anger in Luna’s voice.

“It’s Luna.”

I held her hand

“Someone told me. Love isn’t about what you can do. It’s about how much you can give up.”

That’s what Raven told me.

“I… do you love me?”

i asked her

Luna’s trembling eyes entered mine.

“…It’s lethal.”

Luna turned her head.

“It’s mean. Sirius. It’s so mean that I’m speechless.”

I knew. How cruel these words were to Luna.

“love you.”

I kissed Luna.

Luna, with a resentful face, did not reject my kiss.

Their tongues intertwined, and their faces smeared with saliva.

“It’s the worst. A man like you.”

That’s right.

I was the worst man

“If I knew he was really like this, the day I arrived at Amelia-sama’s castle, I should have killed him.

Luna said while stroking the nape of my neck.

“If it’s for you. It’s okay to die, Luna.”

i hugged her

“Curse me for falling in love with someone like you.”

Luna whispered in my ear.

“I curse myself for falling for a woman like you.”

After exchanging words that only hurt each other, we coveted each other’s bodies.

Contrary to the pleasure that rises from the body, Luna and I both had disfigured faces.

The more I hugged Luna, the more Seria’s voice resonated in my head.

Wanting to erase her voice, I bit Luna tighter on the nape of her neck.

The place where my fangs touched left a bright red mark and there were drops of blood.

I buried my head and licked her blood.

The taste of her blood, which seemed to melt his brain, gradually clouded his thoughts about Seria.

So I stayed up all night with Luna until I collapsed from exhaustion.

When I opened my eyes, it seemed Luna was already gone.

Shaking my messy hair, I woke up and found a note lying on the table.

[I hate you.]

It had only two words, but I thought it would have expressed her feelings better than any other words.

Last night, I definitely thought I had done something bad to Luna.

Of course, that wasn’t what I intended.

Because she was trespassing on my room.

If she hadn’t come in, I would have gone to sleep in agony.

But he didn’t actually want Luna to touch Seria.

Our goal is simply to disrupt Seria’s process of becoming a hero. I just wanted you to be faithful to that.

After washing and changing into my uniform, I went out to visit.

I had to stand in front of Seria pretending nothing happened again.

From now on, if possible, I thought I should refrain from bringing up the name Yuwol first.

I couldn’t control my emotions well.

2 Arriving at the gymnasium, I grabbed the doorknob.

Facial expression management. Facial expression management.

It was repeated in my mind.

“Welcome.”

Seria looked at me with a cold expression.

okay. rather hate me