There Is No Spring in the Stolen Field

68. frustration (2)

She could feel her hands trembling.

“Tell me something. Sirius.”

I was surprised to see a surprisingly calm appearance right after the evaluation, but was that an act?

“Tell me quickly. The person named Yu-wol. I don’t know. He’s a completely different person.”

Seria’s face was terribly distorted.

With tears in her eyes, she gathered her arms together and buried her face on the table.

“…You always talked about it well. Don’t get me wrong… I’m not that kind of person…”

I felt my eyes turn red.

okay. I’ll tell you.

If this puts your mind at ease.

I’ll tell you how many times

i am not me

“…that’s right.”

Sarah raised her head and looked at me.

“I… I’m not that kind of person.”

“Talk about a person named Yuwol. Honestly, I’m sick of it. Warrior.”

I raised the tone of my voice as if I was a little angry in part.

“I told you many times that it wasn’t! Why do you hear what you want to hear and misunderstand it at will!”

“Does saying that a hero does nothing after being stabbed in the back mean that he is sorry for misunderstanding people?”

“Calm down a bit. Warrior! All humans believe you will save the world, but what will they say when they see you lying face down and weeping?”

Sarah held her head.

“Stop… stop… Sirius…”

With each nail driven into her chest, it felt like a bigger hole was being drilled through mine.

“…That’s why I lose to Lady Luna.”

For a moment, I knew the emotions reflected in Seria’s eyes.

despair.

“It’s heartbreaking to think that a person like this is a hero who will save everyone.”

I got up from my seat and walked out onto the terrace.

I didn’t have the confidence to sit down at the table and talk face to face.

It was hard to resist the urge to hold her crying right now in my arms and comfort her.

“I’m leaving.”

“…Dog star.”

“I don’t think I have anything more to say.”

drooling.

I heard her get up from the chair.

“…That’s right. What do you have left to say to a person who betrayed me and my party members blinded by the master-servant relationship?”

It was a high-pitched voice.

“Luna. Sirius. You know that the only way to be selected for the final warrior party is to be reborn.”

“You bastard bastard.”

After that, the sound of the door closing was heard.

After confirming that she had left, I turned my back and stared blankly at the spot where she had disappeared.

“Seria…”

quietly. I called out the name that I cherished more than anything else.

I am Sirius

I am Sirius

I am not June.

I am not June.

To protect a person named Yuwol, he was given the name Sirius…

I thought it was a strange causal relationship.

After Seria left, I was stuck in bed and couldn’t even step out.

The fact that there was still a long way left before graduation from the academy made my heart heavy.

Should I betray and hurt her in the name of sabotaging the hero again?

At this point, I also thought that even if I later revealed that I was in June, I would have already run out of 50,000 pavilions.

But Luna and me. Ceria. This was the only way everyone could survive.

As I was experiencing a throbbing headache, I heard someone knocking on my door.

“it’s me.”

my girl

It was Luna’s voice.

I had no choice but to greet Luna with a haggard look.

I don’t know if Luna already noticed my condition or if it was just because I didn’t like my expression, but she hugged me tight from the front door.

“It’s okay, Sirius.”

she stroked my hair

“good job.”

I could feel the tears welling up at her kind touch.

I felt the warm touch of the person who did the bad thing to me.

“Let’s go in.”

She took my hand and entered the bedroom.

“Luna. I…”

I tried to say that I couldn’t do anything because I was overcome with guilt.

“Shh.”

Luna lifted her index finger and brought it to my mouth.

“I… will make you forget… Sirius…”

She rolled up the cuffs of her shirt.

The wounds caused by the battle with Seria were visible.

Clear scars were left on both of Luna’s wrists.

“What did he do… hurt the me you love…?”

Luna’s voice appeals as if Seria is a bad person…

But I couldn’t bear to actively respond to her words.

Because I was the worst person

“I’m hurt…? Sirius…?”

Luna’s eyes widened.

I guess he didn’t like my reaction with an ambiguous expression.

Luna scratched the cut with her fingernails.

Blood started pouring out again from the wound that was healing.

Red blood flowed down her white skin.

“Luna…!”

“I don’t want to see that face.”

She held out her wrist to me.

“drink.”

To be honest, I didn’t feel like drinking Luna’s blood and being soaked in pleasure.

“Aren’t you drinking?”

I felt a burning thirst, but I forcibly turned my head the other way.

“Why won’t you listen. Our Sirius.”

Luna’s spell made me move my body and lick her blood.

I felt my body tremble and my thoughts paralyzed by the tingling pleasure.

After tasting it once, I voluntarily continued to lick her wrist.

It was a feeling that his feelings of sorry for Seria melted along with her flowing blood.

“hahahaha…”

Luna looked at me with a flushed face.

“Dog star.”

With blood on my mouth, I looked up.

“It’s just enough to do this from now on, okay?”

she hugged me

It wasn’t this.

Relying on Luna to repeat forgetting what I did to Seria was something I should never have done.

“Let go.”

I spoke to Luna in a subdued voice.

“…Dog star?”

Luna seemed a little surprised by my cold reaction.

“I don’t feel like this.”

Luna bit her lip.

“No. That’s right, Sirius.”

My arms, which once again became a doll, wrapped around her waist.

I couldn’t bear to let Luna dictate my actions and emotions any longer.

“If you come out like this, I have an idea.”

“Are you being so harsh on me because of the 4 year old?”

Luna shouted as if it was unfair.

It was her who gushed like a child whose toys had been taken away.

“Please respect my feelings!”

I shouted at her.

“You already beat the hero. Luna. You won. Because I did something nasty. I made you the winner.”

“I feel like… I’m going to cut my heart out with my own hands…”

I pushed her away.

Luna had a blank look on her face.

“…Your heart… isn’t it me…? Is it that child…?”

I had a feeling that something was wrong.

But it was also my true intention without lies.

“It’s not like that… but I want to be alone… Please go home today… Luna.”

“no.”

Luna’s voice was filled with annoyance.

“I don’t like it. Sirius. I want to stay by your side.”

I could feel her spell gripping my body once again.

You’re speechless.

“stop.”

“You said you didn’t like it.”

Luna answered firmly.

My patience, which had already been pushed to the limit, was exhausted.

“Luna. You should try it too.”

As mana gathered in my hand, a weak wind blew.

“You, too, feel what it is like for your body and mind to reject your will.”

“Sirius, you… what are you going to do…?”

Luna’s face was stained with embarrassment.

She must know. what am i going to do

“I didn’t mean to go this far.”

The weak wind from my hand enveloped her body.

“…Sorry.”

From nob le mt l. co m

Kneeling in front of me, Luna apologized while trembling.

I ran my finger across her cheek.

“How are you feeling, Luna?”

“Please don’t do this, Sirius.”

She pleaded with me in a voice that sounded like a child.

“You didn’t want to stop either.”

I lifted Luna’s chin towards me in a cold voice.

Luna tried to come towards me sitting on the sofa as if she couldn’t stand it any longer.

“stop.”

Luna, who was about to get up, stopped moving.

“What did I say?”

“Don’t move until Sirius tells you to…”

She drew her tail.

“Then what should I do?”

“I’ll have to… sit down…”

She knelt down again and looked up at me.

“Luna”

“Yeah… Sirius…”

She looked at me with anxious eyes.

“I was wrong. I didn’t.”

“sorry.”

Luna was in a state where normal thinking was impossible now.

His usual cool and rational appearance disappeared everywhere.

“So Sirius please… I’m going to die…”

But I knew that this was still not enough.

In order to prevent her from trying to wield me at will, it was necessary to carve a little deeper trauma into it.

“Can you do anything for me, Luna?”

I asked her in a slightly soft voice.

She nodded vigorously.

“I’ll do it. I’ll do anything. For Sirius, I’ll do anything.”

Yeah… that was the answer I was looking for.

“That word. You must keep it.”

A smile formed on my lips.

“Then I’ll give you a prize, Luna.”

I felt a thrilling sense of conquest rising at the reversal of my usual relationship.

“Get down.”