Three Kingdoms

  Chapter 302 Whose fault

  Liu Xie found out that it was a mistake for him to come to this world.

I heard from Empress Dowager Dong that at that time, because Empress He was so jealous, her mother Wang Meiren was ready to have an abortion, but he seemed to feel something in the womb, moving, and Wang Meiren felt the fetal movement, so she decided to kill him no matter what. born to.

But when he was born, his mother was killed by Empress He. His father Han Lingdi was very angry at first, but when he saw a lot of money from the eunuch, he got carried away and forgot about that poor and weak woman.

   Nevertheless, seeing the crying and struggling little life, Emperor Ling of Han gave him to his mother, Empress Dowager Dong, just in case.

  Afterwards, his father Han Lingdi only visited him a few times a year, until his father died.

After the elder brother Liu Bian came to the throne, Liu Xie himself was named the King of Bohai Sea. He originally thought that his life in the future would be like a pool of stagnant water. Several boulders stirred up huge waves.

   What he experienced in the previous nine years seemed to be only a fraction of what he experienced in less than a year.

  The first time I left the palace, the first time I stepped out of Luoyang City, I escaped like a stray dog ​​on a **** road under a sharp sword!

   Those familiar faces who had accompanied him and cared for him before had turned into pale corpses, mingled with the mud on the side of the road.

  Together with my brother and myself wearing those clothes that represent the royal family, they all fell into the yellow mud, covered with dust, polluted, and trampled...

   On the way back to Luoyang, I met Dong Zhuo who was leading the army. My brother couldn’t speak because of nervousness. I couldn’t bear my brother being bullied at the time, so I stood up and scolded Dong Zhuo loudly...

  Sometimes he would even think that if he hadn't been troublesome back then, maybe his brother wouldn't have been abolished, he wouldn't have been killed, and he wouldn't have to endure such endless pain.

   Every time I sit on this chair, it feels like a torment.

  The shadow cast by Dong Zhuo's generous body in front of him almost drowned him.

Sometimes he has a hallucination, as if the court hall is already covered with dust, and there are spider threads floating everywhere between the walls of the hall, and behind the court hall one after another, it is like a period of time. Duan's statue made of rotten wood is also like a food animal in clothes...

  And he just came here to sit, wipe off the dust on this chair with his own body, come silently, walk quietly, maybe he can even shout "All Your Honors"...

  He is in pain, the pain is not that he is alive, but that he cannot become a statue of rotten wood, nor can he become a beast that eats money.

He hated Dong Zhuo, because Dong Zhuo smashed his original life to pieces, as if overnight, those so-called happy and happy emotions seemed to be stripped away, leaving only endless sadness, Pain and fear, these negative emotions are like fertilizer mixed with poison, while eroding his heart, they are also rapidly urging his maturity.

He also thanked Dong Zhuo a little bit. If Dong Zhuo hadn't burst the colorful bubble, maybe he still thinks that the important ministers of the three lords and nine lords under the steps are all loyal and devoted, throwing their heads and blood for the Han Dynasty. no matter what...

  He still remembered that when his elder brother was helped up, it was Yuan Kai, who had been favored by the Han family at the bottom of the steps, who personally stepped forward and untied Liu Bian's emperor's seal, and then tied the seal on himself.

He still remembered the complex emotions that were hard to describe in words on his brother's face at that time, and the expressionless face of the Yuan family's Taifu Yuan Wei—as if he was not taking it off from a living person and putting it on again. What item, but like treating a dead object, or facing a dead body...

He still remembers that in the Taimiao, the dim candlelight, the silent spirit card, the words that pierced his soul, and the sharp knife that was deeply cut on the table and table are still echoing in his mind. rampant laughter...

   In all this, who is right and who is wrong?

  Who is responsible for all this?

   Is it me?

   Is my father?

   Is it the brutal Dong Zhuo?

   Or these important ministers like wood carvings kneeling under the steps?

  The glory of the great man is now in my hands, but it is so incomplete, like a candle in the wind, it may go out at any time.

This incomparably majestic and majestic hall was originally like the heart of the entire Han Dynasty. Countless decrees in the past were discussed and implemented one by one here, but now they want to abandon this heart. It was as if he wanted to dig this heart out of the big man's body.

  Although the heart is still beating, it seems to be dead.

  Liu Xie felt that the blood on his body seemed to be still flowing, but it couldn't bring any warmth. Although the clothes on his body were soft and fit, they couldn't resist the coldness in his heart.

Looking at the figure bathed in the sun at the entrance of the main hall, Liu Xie seemed to feel a little bit of warmth, just like the only ray of warmth he got in that long night of blood and iron that was bitingly cold …

   "...Come in, come in!"

  Liu Xie, who has always been a puppet, suddenly spoke out of nowhere.

   Dong Zhuo, who was sitting on the side, turned his head slowly, and his blood-red eyes swept over.

  Liu Xie shrank back a bit, stood up again, and explained: "...It's so far away, I can't see it clearly..."

  The Deyang Hall is seven or eight feet wide from east to west, and about thirty feet long. The distance from the throne of the emperor to the entrance of the hall is indeed quite far.

  Dong Zhuo rolled his eyes, maybe he felt that such a trivial matter was not worth worrying about, so he nodded slightly.

  Seeing this, the **** standing aside raised his voice, and shouted sharply: "Civil Commander Zhang, the servant of the left department, Fei, come forward!"

  Four eunuchs ran over in small steps, lifted up the two mats that had been prepared for Zhang Liao and Fei Qian at the entrance of the Deyang Hall, walked about ten feet into the hall, and then put them down again.

  Zhang Liao and Fei Qian quickly thanked each other loudly, then entered the hall with their heads down, and walked to their respective mats. After bowing again, they knelt upright on it...

The eyes of all the people gathered together. The light inside the hall was not as good as outside the hall. In addition, there were fewer people in the hall at this time. For some reason, Fei Qian had a gloomy feeling. His hairs stood on end.

  For a while, no one spoke in the hall, and there was a brief silence...

   Xu Shu suddenly returned to his horse and turned around.

   Xuande was overjoyed, and said: "Yuanzhi has returned, is there no intention to go?"

   Xu Shu said: "A certain mind is numb and forgets a big event. Here is a strange man who hides in Longzhong. Why don't you ask for it?"

   Xuande said: "How can I get it?"

   Xu Shu said: "It only takes five o'clock—Pan Lu Deng Xiaoxian!"

   Keke...

  (end of this chapter)