To The Lovely You

   Su Rourou's heart suddenly ached: she only remembered how sad and sad she was, why didn't she think about it, how did he come here all these years? Orphans, widows, mothers, no one to rely on, left home... His life was probably as hard as she could not imagine.

"I know, you have been blaming me, blaming me for leaving without saying goodbye, blaming me for not contacting you." Luo Yichen's Adam's apple rolled slightly, his voice was slightly choked, but his eyes were still closed, "But do you know that You know, I forced myself to leave you, and I forced myself not to contact you. In fact... I suffer more than you. You said that you are willing to accompany me to endure hardship, you don't mind - but, I do mind... I I don't want you to live a life of wandering with me, and I don't want you to suffer from other people's strange eyes because of me."

   Su Rourou's eyes were a little wet, and a tear slid down the corner of her eye onto the pillow, leaving a mark of different shades on it.

"When I first arrived in the United States, I had to go to school, and at the same time I had to work part-time to earn my tuition and living expenses... I went to classes during the day and worked all night at night. Sometimes I didn't close my eyes after the whole day... No After a long time, my mother became ill because of depression for many years, and she suddenly became sick. At that time, I was almost crazy... I don't know how I survived, every time I was about to fall, I will remember you."

"I want to be stronger and better, to be able to give you the happiness you want. At that time, I can get back to your side... So, whenever I can't take it anymore, I will I kept telling myself in my heart that as long as I persist for a while, I will be one step closer to the day I see you. Rourou, do you know how important you are to me? You are the only love in my life The person I am willing to protect with my whole life..."

"Actually, that time at your house was not our first reunion. I have already returned to China. I want to see you, but I am afraid to see you. Because I am afraid... I am afraid that you will not forgive me, and I am even more afraid. You are already accompanied by others. Therefore, I can only hide in a corner that you can’t see and watch you silently. When I saw you at your house that day, you knew that I had How happy are you? But... you still won't forgive me."

   "I know, don't say it anymore... In fact, I have already forgiven you." Su Rou Rou's tears couldn't stop flowing again, "It's just... I'm just angry that you lied to me..."

Luo Yichen tentatively stretched out his hand in the dark and gently wiped the tears from her face: "I admit, this matter is my fault. But... I'm just too scared and disturbed. , I am confident about everything, but only for you... I have no confidence at all."

"Seeing that you, Ke Shaoze and He Yanzhi are so close, and thinking that they have been by your side for so many years, I feel nervous and afraid for no reason. I just think about the picture of you with other men, I'm going to go crazy..."

   "I said before, Ke Shaoze and I are just good brothers, and He Yanzhi and I are just good sisters. They were, are, and will be in the future..." Su Rourou emphasized in a low voice.

Luo Yichen seemed to have not heard her words, and said to himself: "Since I was a child, I always liked to lie to you and make fun of you... But why do you only see the surface of things, can't you? Feel with my heart, do I love you? Even if I deceive you occasionally, it's just because I love you so much...I don't want to lose you...I really don't want to lose you..."

   Tears flooded from the corners of her eyes again, and Su Rourou unconsciously wrapped her arms around his waist: "Luo Yichen, I'm sorry... I shouldn't be thinking about myself."