When We Were Perfect

Everyone seems to be upset with me

O God, even my heart is upset with me.

Everything seems to be scattered and upset

Destiny plays a lot of games,

There's a celebration every day

It says nothing has changed but it lies all the time

My beloved won't talk with me,

How should I tell him not to leave?...

Daniel harshly wiped away the hot tears flowing from his eyes, abruptly turning to face her.

"It took me years to build up myself again, mask my pathetic and despicable self behind a strong exterior, not letting my emotions out in front of anyone because I know the day I did they will use it against me, to bring out the vulnerable Daniel out of me, the one who is still chased by his demons, the one who still have anxiety and panic issues!" He grumbled with a crestfallen expression. A heavy sadness laced with disappointment could be heard from his tone.

Amy continued to watch him with tears,

"Why do you so desperately want to know that Daniel huh? the one I have buried, the one whose ghost I am chasing away. You want to make fun of me right! Tell me I don't deserve anything I have right now, that I am a pathetic, worthless, insecure and -----"

"Just stop it, Daniel!" Amy muttered, grabbing his hand between hers.

"Stop calling yourself such words!" She whimpered, Daniel stared at her weeping state as she pulled him towards the bed and for a moment he didn't resist.

Amy gently made him sit on the edge of the bed, standing between his legs.

"These scars don't define you, Daniel. The pain, the wounds struck on you don't define you, this is what you have gone through, not what you are. One can never think of such awful things in their dreams but you went through it!" 

She mumbled caressing his jawline. Her teary eyes staring into his bloodshot ones with so much sincerity and admiration that for a moment he went dumbstruck. Those eyes, those emotions were breaking his resolve.

This is what he wanted to see in her eyes, admiration and love. He observed trying to find any fragment of pity there but no it wasn't there.

"Daniel you are much braver than you think and much stronger than you seem. You aren't pathetic or weak, you are a person who didn't let the ultimate despair land him into misery. You made yourself strong despite every pain and grief, you strived and struggled to become where you are today. You are much more beautiful than any other person in this world because you have a heart that is made of gold.!" Amy poured out her heart still caressing his cheekbones.

"You know when I look back in the past, I feel I don't deserve you, Daniel. You are much more than the things that are stemmed in your heart. You accepted life as a challenge and fought with every storm. Today, the respect I had for you increased infinite times not because I pity you but because you carry these scars on your body bravely, accepting them and not letting them fail you. These scars are a sign of your strength, your courage, they make you more admirable in my eyes!"

Daniel closed his eyes, succumbing to her words, the words he so badly wanted to hear. The feel of her touch, her warmth was surrounding him again, thawing his walls. Just how much he had wanted that, to hear such words of acceptance that he wasn't despicable, for her to look at him with such admiration but still does her saying validates it, the things his parents said to him.

"Amy," he whispered. Though it was barely audible but she heard him, to her he looked like a small child who was hurt. He wanted to hug her, hide himself away from those awful memories.

Out of a sudden, he wrapped his arms around her waist, hugging her closely.

The memories struck him as he nuzzled her belly, tears again refreshing.

"What was my fault!" He mumbled with so much pain, clutching her waist. It was hurtful but Amy didn't even flinch knowing it wasn't close to what he suffered from.

"What did I ever do to deserve this!" He grumbled like a kid.

"Don't blame yourself like that, they were cruel and disgusting people who didn't deserve you!" Amy muttered with a sob lifting his cheek and caressing it. Daniel stared back at her, this time his eyes softening.

"Why does it matter to you, Amy!"

Without thinking further, she lowered herself and smashed her lips on his making him shiver from the contact.

He automatically closed his eyes at the soft feeling as Amy deepened the kiss, raking her fingers through his hair. Their lips moulded into one dancing in a rhythm as if both were thirsty for this. He pulled her towards him even more, making him fall back on the bed with Amy landing on top of him, straddling his hips.

He held onto her waist as they kept kissing each other, Amy bit on his lip softly making him moan loudly. They both pulled away from each other after a minute short of air with Daniel staring at her in shock, lips were swollen and redness covered his whole face either from the heat they were experiencing at the moment or the sudden intimacy.

She panted still on top of him before she lowered herself again, kissing his cheeks one then another trailing down to his neck and shoulder bone making him groan from the pleasure.

"You matter to me, Daniel, because I care for you!" She mumbled kissing his Adam's apple slowly moving down to his chest placing sloppy kisses all the way down to his burn mark. She slowly trailed it with her finger before kissing it too, it was like adoring his body. Letting his insecurities wipe away from her touch and kisses.

"You matter to me, to Ozan and everyone around. That's how special you are!" She whispered in a raspy tone staring directly into his eyes, both their gazes laced with heat.

He held her shoulders, pulling her down slowly letting their lips meet once again, this time in a heated manner as Daniel flipped them over, getting himself on top.

Amy shuddered in pleasure beneath his body roaming her hands all over his toned stomach as if not getting enough of it. For the first time in her life, she felt such a desire and want for someone, regretting that she didn't clearly remember their first time either. She wanted him, wanted him so badly that everything flew out of the window.

She lowered her one hand to his pant button, undoing it as Daniel thrusted his tongue inside her mouth, ravishing every inch of it like never before. This is what she does to him, makes him insane and makes him lose his control.

Just as she was going to reach for his zipper, Daniel curled her tongue inside his mouth,

"Daniel!" She moaned loudly in between the kiss. This seemed to haul up a flood of memory in his mind as he halted his movement pulling away from the kiss.

'His touch burns me!'

'I feel ridiculed'

'I can never love him!'

'What the hell I am doing!' He mumbled in his mind.

'Stop if you don't want to regret it later!' His mind chided.

The words seemed to echo around him as he stared warily at her.

'What the hell I am doing!' He mumbled in his mind.

Amy frowned from the sudden pause and the change in his expressions.

He abruptly pulled away from her, buttoning his pants. Amy too hauled herself up on her elbows trying to catch her breath.

"Daniel, what happened?" She asked panting now worried but he didn't answer. He hurriedly picked his discarded shirt from the floor and wore it before striding out of his room, without much of looking her way, leaving her in a breathing mess.

Amy just sat there stupefied about what happened between them a moment ago. 

"You were supposed to comfort him, Amy not seduce him!" She whispered to herself, 

'Maybe he is still recovering from his memories!' She wondered sadly but then a blush coated her cheeks seeing that she was still in his bed with crinkled sheets, realising how close they were to give in themselves, she slowly trailed her fingers on her swollen lips still feeling the taste and touch of his lingering on them.

All kinds of sinful thoughts that she never thought about with Daniel came into her mind as she shook her head embarrassed.

She heaved herself up from the bed moving out of his room towards her, she halted for a second thinking that he might still be feeling apprehensive and she might go to him but then she remembered how hurriedly he strode out of the room meaning that he didn't wanted company. 

Maybe he wanted some space to regain himself.

'Have all the space you want Daniel because next time I won't leave you alone to deal with your problems and insecurities!' She muttered to herself stepping inside her room.