When We Were Perfect

"Mom, Silas, and I have decided to get married this week," Amy announced grinning at her mother. Daniel was trying to make vahide laugh by telling her some anecdotes when Amy and Silas came with entwined hands. Amy was smiling while Silas was giving a tight-lipped smile. Vahide grinned and motioned them to come forward and hug her. All this while Daniel sat there feeling confused and a sense of 'Deja Vu' from the graduation ceremony. His heart palpitates irregularly as he tries to soothe it at the moment not wanting to ruin anything. He felt himself the same boy who was once a victim of brutality, the same boy who desperately needed someone to hold him before he falls apart. Amy and Silas break the hug as they both stood together facing vahide.

"I am so happy for both of you, I know it's too much at the moment but thanks for considering especially you Silas." Vahide apprises looking at both of them.

"It's nothing vahide mom, you deserve to see us happy," Silas says hesitantly looking away deliberately. Daniel snaps out of his condition and tries to act usually. Daniel breaks into a smile. A smile filled with resignation and despair. A smile used to show the world that he was okay when inside he was shattered and bleeding. His eyes showed a string of hope and longing that was slowly withering away.

"Congratulations guys! When did this happen? " Daniel asks standing up from his chair and glancing at his two pals. Amy smiles looking at Silas and then replying

"It is mom's wish, so we had to make a decision." Daniel turns and hugs her

" I am happy for both of you." He says then bro hugs Silas.

"Congrats bro," he says but noticing his distant face he mumbles softly only for him to hear

"Are you okay" Silas shakes his head in denial

"Just overwhelmed with the situation," Silas replies. Vahide notices this and asks

"Silas if you are stressed then we can move it forward " Silas turns and smile at her

"No, it's okay Vahide mom, if it's going to happen then why delay it." Amy heeds at his words but shrugs it off sitting by her mother's side she holds her hand

"Mom, don't worry we have everything under control" this somehow relaxes Vahide who then turns to Daniel

"Daniel son, you should go home, you must be tired." Amy gasps

"Yeah! I forgot that you have been here for hours." Daniel scoffs placing his hands in his pockets trying to warm them.

"Not a problem for me tesoro and you don't have a say in our mother-son time." Amy rolls her eyes with a smile.

" Okay, Mr.son but now we both are here. So you go home and take a rest." Amy says or more like commands Daniel tries to protest but Amy glares daring him to refuse.

"Fine, Fine I am leaving." He says giving a peck on vahide mom's forehead. He hugs Amy and Silas also giving Silas an anxious gaze to which he smiles. Leaving the room, Daniel glances last time glimpsing at Amy who smiles at Silas while he talks to Vahide.

Sweats begin to form on his head as the reality once again resurfaces. He nearly runs outside taking a deep breath in the air.

"No, No Daniel it was bound to happen, get a grip you should be happy for them. Can't you see how she smiled after two months? " his whisper yelled at himself looking at the parking area and slowly making his way toward his car. Sliding in he started to drive towards his office. He needed to clear his mind from this and he knew the only way was to work it out. Immersing himself in work was his only way to run from his demons or keep them at bay. Walking in his office building, the guards immediately stood up along with Lance who was his driver as well as a personal bodyguard but Daniel didn't tag him along mostly when he visited Amy and Vahide. He nodded at their greetings in his usual stoic form. Sighing and sitting in his office chair, he began to work on a new project but his mind continuously wandered to Amy and Silas, their entwined hands.

'She will be Mrs. Silas Alakurt before this weekend, she will soon have a family with Silas and will happily with him just like you wanted always.' His subconsciousness cried out at him. Frustrated he threw the papers away. His breathing became erratic as he tried to gain his composure.

"Stop this, she will be happy and I want her to be happy. I will survive watching both my best friend and brother together and happy." He said to himself as he placed both of his shivering hands on his head tugging his front hairs.

'Who are you fooling Daniel, we both know how much you are going to suffer' his subconsciousness scoffed at him.

"Just fucking stop it " Daniel yelled throwing his files on the floor. His breath becoming irregular, he clutched the sides of his chair digging his nails into it trying to soothe his mind and body but still, he could hear his mind chanting the same words again and again. He knew he had to calm himself or otherwise a panic attack would be waiting for him. Immediately he pulled open his drawer at the bottom of his desk where he kept a picture of Amy and him when they were in school. He traced his finger along her face. The only things that helped him in these situations were either his medicines or Amy. That's why he always kept a picture of her near. Outlining her features he took a long breath as he stared into her hazel pools which enchants her. Their tenderness warms him. He exhaled slowly as tears started to pool in his eyes yet he refuses to shed them.

"Why did we ever meet, if we weren't meant to be. Why GOD why." He asked helplessly

'Maybe it was our destiny to have a broken and lonely life ' his mind said this time slowly.

He closed his eyes clutching the picture to his chest. The worst thing about love is no matter how many tears they bring to your eyes, your heart will still crave it. Daniel could hear his heartbeat stabilizing but he observed one more thing. His heart was breaking in the loudest quiet ever. He heard his phone going off, he opened his eyes to see Silas's name flashing on the screen but he couldn't answer in this state. Silas would understand that something was off with him and being the curious guy he is, he wouldn't let go of the topic easily. So he simply put his phone to silent before starting at the picture in his hand.

"Maybe, it's time to let you go tesoro."