When We Were Perfect

The car came to a halt in front of the main door of the mansion. Amy without giving a glance at anything around went straight to her room. Even when the doctor confirmed her pregnancy and gave us a detailed description of what to expect in the coming months along with some precautions, her only response was a stiff nod as she didn't want to be there for a minute. Daniel couldn't seem to wrap his mind around the fact that this was happening in real. Maybe it was his mind or just a process that a person goes through finding out he was going to be a father, it was maybe a natural thing. Daniel sighed, it was going to be a tough ride for him considering the way Amy was behaving. He shrugged his jacket on the couch and went into the kitchen, warming some milk adding a little amount of honey. He walked towards Amy's room but halted in the middle when he saw the sliding door to the patio was wide open, moving towards the open door he felt a cool night breeze fall on his face, there she sat on one of the chairs looking at the sky or more like glaring, the light fell on her pale face, the bandage still wrapped around her head. The moon was shining today as if celebrating his happiness, Daniel slowly went inside, placing the glass of milk on the table and sitting beside her. Amy rolled her eyes before glaring back at the sky as holding it responsible for every single problem in her life.

"We need to talk tesoro! " Daniel murmured tiredly. Amy just grunted in response not wanting to have any discussion with him.

"What else do you want to talk about," She said rubbing her arms for warmth, her head still ached a little but the doctor told her it will be better in a few days.

"About us!" He breathed.

Amy tilted her head in his direction locking her eyes with him.

"How many times do I have to tell you that there is nothing like 'us'" Amy grumbled. A grim expression took over Daniel's face.

"I know but we need to start having a healthy relationship and especially you need to work on this bitter attitude of yours, for the sake of our child now," Daniel responded.

"OH, GOD!" Amy cried in frustration.

"This thing is not even out of me and already setting things in my life, I knew something like that would happen."

"It's not a thing Tesoro! at least don't say that," Daniel huffed feeling hurt that she called their child a thing. Amy just tutted in response tugging earrings and placing them beside her. Daniel stood from his place.

"Why don't you want a child and don't lie to me saying it's because of your career or cases ahead because I know very well that's not the reason or the only reason," Daniel asserted staring at her, Amy's gaze fell on her hands before she lifted and locked it with Daniel. A voice in his heart telling him beforehand that whatever she was going to say was going to hurt him more than today's events.

"Because you are not the person I wanted to have a child with, you are not the person I wanted to have a family with Daniel," Amy confessed in a lowly voice, hinting at the hurt she suffered. Daniel's jaw stiffened as a prickly sensation took over his heart throwing him into the pit of agony, he closes his eyes just for a second.

'Why does it hurt, hearing the truth and obvious from her, isn't it the reality that Silas would always be that person, she wanted to marry and have a family with. He was just a compromise and substitute.

"You are right, I would never be that person but I am not a stranger either," He said as he kneed down before her and stared at her hands which were placed on her lap.

"We can raise this child together with love tesoro, you don't have to love me to love this child," Daniel said grimly while trying to soothe his shaking self, glancing at her face and then her tummy. Amy turned her head away rubbing the sides of her neck.

"It's been a rough day Daniel and I have a lot to absorb about today's events. So, please leave me alone!" She said not even glancing at him.

Have you ever felt like swimming in the ocean of hope but still not reaching the bay, you don't drown in water, you drown in your helplessness. It was the same with Daniel. he felt himself drowning in helplessness, screaming and shouting but everyone near him just turned their head away not giving any importance to his pleas.

Sighing he stood and walked towards the sliding door.

"Please drink that milk tesoro, you haven't had anything since morning," he muttered before stepping out, rubbing his forehead wiping away the beads of sweat that were forming despite the cold breeze around. His heart beating at an abnormal rate as he begrudgingly walked into his room towards the bathroom. Getting rid of his clothes, he stood below the shower, letting the hot water soothe his tired and sore muscles but it wasn't able to soothe his torn heart, his mind that replayed her words. Placing both his hands on the wall he leaned his head on the glass, trying his best not to cry. 

He could understand that he wasn't the man of Amy's dreams but what he couldn't decipher were that bitterness and cold attitude that are him. Those words pierced him like a knife despite being a reality. His body shook even under the steaming hot water. Sometimes he hated himself, hated this pathetic self of his that got triggered by intense emotions, his weakness due to which he became stoic. Not letting anyone play with him and make him a victim of his misery, the misery that was due to his childhood longings and trauma. He was reluctant at first but with gathering a lot of confidence, he went to many therapists but no one could pull out the root of this trauma from his mind. The damage his parents did to him was very deep in a matter of fact. There was no way he could help himself, he was a fool to think that he escaped his parent's cruelty, an utter fool. Those memories were like a part of him, haunting and mocking him at every stage of his life, the doctors advised him to start taking antidepressants and several other medicines but to no avail. That's why he started to work out and indulge more in office to divert his mind. The only other thing that calmed him was either Amy or even the thought of her was enough. He didn't know why but there was always a connection. The best thing he could do in the past year's was to hide his emotions and mask them, not letting anyone know of this side of him. He knows that people will only use it as a weapon against him once they get news about it, even Silas was unaware of this thing. He was limited to the fact that he had nightmares sometimes, not even knowing how horrible those were some days.

Daniel stepped out of the shower, grabbing a towel from the stand and wrapping it around his waist. The mirror in front showing all the scars that littered his torso and some were even present at his back. Although most of them faded yet some left behind reminding him of the terrifying memories related to them. No one knew about his scars, he was thankful that Amy only noticed them in a drunken state. Shaking his head, he went to his closet. It was a long day, all the events of the day replaying his mind, from Amy's fainting to her harsh words sometime before. A small smile graced his lips while wearing his pyjamas, an unknown emotion swelled in his heart, a strong one.

He was going to be a father, in a few months there will be a small child in his arms. Only if Amy would be as ecstatic as him, sighing he laid on his bed staring at the ceiling, thinking of all the possible things that could happen in these coming months. Daniel didn't know whether he was ready for this role or not but one thing was sure that he would trade himself for his child's happiness. He wouldn't let him suffer from anything, he wouldn't let any harm come to him, he slightly chuckled at his own thinking. How this child wasn't even here and he already felt like an overprotective father. Maybe it's nature's way of connecting parents to their child by boring a seed of love in their heart which blossoms with every progressive stage of pregnancy till the child is born.