When We Were Perfect

Amy's lips trembled as revelations after revelations continue to strike her.

"I only saw him as my best friend Silas because I loved you!" She managed to utter those words.

"No Amy, you don't even see him as a best friend now and for your love, you didn't love me Amy it was just a challenge for you that you hallucinated as love. You became so engrossed in displaying a perfect relationship of ours that you didn't even consider your feelings!" Silas shouted trying to get some sense into her.

"Don't say that Silas, I have always considered you to be my partner and I have loved you!" Amy cried out, her heart still pounding rapidly.

"Really, Amy admit that you had an inferiority complex in school when people called you chubby and dumb. I was the popular guy in school who used to flirt with every girl except you because I saw you as my sister. You took that upon yourself and when your class-fellows teased you, you ran to Daniel telling him that you want to be treated as a friend by me. I did that Amy because Daniel told me to treat you as a friend but I never knew that you would take that compliment to some other level. Showing others that even you can date anyone you want, it was my nature to flirt and tease people, so just get that in your thick mind that there was never love between us. It was your way of showing everyone that you had a perfect life, that you weren't the same dumb and chubby girl as before.!!!!" Silas hissed, throwing the nastiest glare towards Amy who was glued to the seat not even knowing whether to admit or deny all these things. 

Silas grabbed his jacket from the couch and went to leave before halting in his steps.

"I apologize for leaving you like that in the middle of a situation Amy but I will never ever forgive you for what you did to Daniel. That person loved you above and beyond everything just to learn that you practically used him as a ladder for your career, that you even broke the friendly bond you had with him just to focus on your own life.!"

Silas hissed in an icy tone not wanting to be in the same place as her.

"He was right, you aren't the same Amy Moretti as before because that Amy wouldn't use her beloveds for power, that Amy wasn't an unfaithful, ungrateful and conceited person who even abandoned her own son!" He spat those words at her before sprinting out of the living room leaving her to drown in this new misery which she herself chose to be a part of.

Her breaths were getting shallow, was her life all a hallucination, was this the reality, the questions bombarded her mind but deep down she could feel the intensity, the reality behind Silas words. But was she disregarding her feelings just to show off everyone that she had a perfect life? But the thing which sliced her nerves was Daniel loved her all these years.

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The leaves on the road blew aside by the wind displaced by the rushing car. Daniel gripped the steering wheel with his trembling hands as he took a sharp right turn before stepping on the brakes in front of a familiar place. The same lake behind their school. This lake was his hope, the place he would always come to whenever he was stressed and tired. The place where he would usually come to with Amy, laughing and talking about everything and anything.

He slowly walks to the bridge, remembering the first time he brought her here.

"This place is so beautiful and calm!" Amy said looking around the lake with a beautiful smile.

"You're welcome Ma lady!" Daniel says in a British accent spreading his arms as Amy giggles.

He stands on the bridge as memories continue to hit him.

"You look so beautiful!" Daniel complimented.

"Even when I wear a potato sack!" Amy raised her brows.

"Yes, even then you would be the most beautiful girl!" He said in a hushed tone making Amy roll her eyes with a smile.

"Amy, give me back my book!" Daniel warned as they continued to run along the lake.

"Not before you buy me twenties!" Amy giggled.

"Fine! I will!" Daniel surrendered before grabbing his book not seeing that they were both on the edge.

"You are so m…!" Amy stumbled falling into the lake not before taking Daniel with her. Reaching the surface they both burst into laughter seeing each other's state. Her hazel eyes glowing in the night.

"You know what's the best thing about you!" Amy asked out of a sudden. Daniel shrugged his shoulders in denial.

"That I can always confide in you!"

"You will always be my best friend Daniel Saritas!" Amy said, hugging him.

"And I will always be here for you tesoro!" He replied, eyeing the hazel-eyed beauty in front of him.

Tears rolled down his cheeks remembering those times but now he wanted to burn every memory, every wish and desire away. The pain was becoming so unbearable for him that he wanted to erase all the memories they had together so that she would be nothing to him. But who was he kidding!

"Damn it! Just fucking DAMN it! " he finally screamed out.

Why did I ever fall in love with her? Why didn't I let go of these feelings before?

He cried and yelled, starting at the sky as if asking his destiny to stop playing with him. The aching was too much to bear but it had to go.

"I married him for influence and power!"

"His touch burns me!"

"I feel ridiculous!"

"Just fucking stop it, stop it!" He yelled, the words stinging his ears causing more pain than the sting of a snake.

"What did I ever do to deserve this, what did I ever do to be unloved like this. Was it that difficult to be loved by someone you loved the most, What do I have to suffer in the end!"  He croaked holding back the sting of tears gathering in his eyes. He felt like his breath was slipping away as he sobbed. He never in his life sobbed like that after his terrible childhood.

He didn't know for how long he cried before his phone started ringing. Wiping away the tears he composed himself, staring at the screen that flashed Silas name. He let it ring for a while before rejecting it but then he saw Amy's wallpaper on his home screen, the same picture he had in his bedroom and office. He humorlessly laughed before taking a good grip of his phone and throwing it away at a distance in the lake.

"This is the place where I used to wish, desire and dream about you and here I am burying my love for you!" He cried out watching the ripples formed by his phone as it drowned in the lake.

You know what sucks, that no matter how much effort you put to get something, you don't always get your happy ending. You are just left alone with a broken heart and a thousand memories of the person that was never yours.

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The guards opened the gates, as he wheeled the car inside his house. Wishing more than anything to just run away from this ache. Stepping out the first thing he saw was Silas sitting on the steps of the front door looking exhausted glancing at him with an unknown emotion.

"Daniel, I swear I didn't know she would do something like that. She wanted to meet me, so I thought it would be better to settle things. But I didn't kiss her back nor agree to anything she said!" Silas started rambling as soon as Daniel walked towards him.

"It's okay, you don't have to explain yourself, Silas. I know what happened there!" He croaked. Silas wanted to cry seeing his state, his face dried with tears. Silas had no idea what kind of turmoil his friend was passing through but the broken look on his face was enough to define that there was an emotional storm brewing inside him.

"Everything ended Silas!" He whispered feeling the final shred of emotion break inside him as he choked on the reality of what had happened. The reality that he finally lost every bond he had with Amy, his tesoro, the source of his feelings. Silas himself felt a tear drip from his eye as he wrapped his arms around his friend hugging him.

"Fuck everything Daniel, she didn't deserve you. You know what, let's get married and raise Ozan together. No need for anything else!" He said, trying to soothe his friend. Daniel backed away from him and smiled with tears.

"I wish it was that easy Silas!" He mumbled, 

"Daniel…" 

"Silas go back home, I want to be alone for some time." He begged, Silas didn't want to leave him but he knew that Daniel needed some space.. He nodded, hugging him one more time before walking away.