Xavier's girl

VANESSA 

I felt lighter as Xavier lead me down a corridor, we just finished having dinner and accepting congratulations. It feels like I'm floating in the sky, I couldn't remember what I was so worried about before everything was perfect. But also grounded with the earth. 

"What's happening to me?" I asked once we were inside a room,

"The food you ate had some pills, you get used to it in a few days," Xavier says too casual 

"No. No. I can't. I need a clear head around here, I need to plan our escape." Did they just put it in my food or every else? But Xavier didn't seem to be affected by it. 

"Vanessa you can't say that out loud and trust me they will always be listening to your conversation. I'll worry about getting you out of this." He grabs both sides of my face, although I couldn't focus on his face I nod. 

"You got us into this mess, why did you come? We were perfectly happy and safe. Amelia would never be in this mess if you weren't such an evil bastard!" 

"After everything I suffered I deserved a happy life Xavier, you had Cara but yet you wanted something that wasn't yours." These people would never have found us in New Zealand, Amelia was safe there. I was safe there.

"You need to get it to your head that you are mine, Vanessa. The minute I saw you, you became mine. I got you into this mess I know but I swear on my life I'll get you out of here even if I have to kill every single one of them."

"I don't trust you." I sob, it was the truth, with everything Mary told me and whatever he had with Cara I don't believe him, this might just be one of his plans to take Amelia away from me. 

"I know baby." Xavier kisses my head, pulling me into his chest. I wince from how tender my breast was from lack of breastfeeding. It all clogged up and filled with milk, which makes me cry harder. 

"How do you plan on getting us out of here?" I asked curiously, every door I've seen is locked and needed a print to open. 

"Don't worry, Alan will do what he needs to do." He said vaguely, "we can't talk about leaving ever. You must make them believe you are happy here."

"I'm sorry, I know this isn't what you expect." I glance around the room. Unlike the one I work up in this was twice the size and was Xavier from the lack of colour, everything was either grey or black. We were supposed to be consummating our marriage but that was the last thing on my mind right now. I look at the king-size bed, it was all made up and untouched. 

"We need to focus on the task of escaping this hell." I can't get detracted. And he was a distraction. 

"Until I get word from Alan I'm afraid all we have to do is sit and wait." Xavier moves to the other side of the room and beings undressing. 

"How long?" The longer I'm away from my daughter the more it affects my mental state. 

"I can't say. But what I can tell is that this isn't forever. You just have to be patient. And Amelia is perfectly safe, they will never hurt a hair on her head." 

"I don't think it can get more fucked up than this," he chuckled 

"Don't jinx it." I look down at our hands, shit we were married. Well in this world, not so sure about the real one. I wince once more from the small movement I made. 

"What's wrong?" 

"Nothing, I just need to breastfeed." I undo my bra without taking off the dress, with a small sigh of relief I threw the bra onto the ottoman. 

"Do you need my help?" He frowns as he watches me

"Sure, do you have a breast pump hidden somewhere?" I joked knowing he had none.

"No, but I have these." He points to his lips.

"I'm not going to let you suck my breast milk Xavier." I frown at the thought of it, it wasn't a bad idea but too intimate. I blush at the idea. 

"Don't tell me you are shy? Nessie I fucked you a few nights ago or do I need to help you remember?" Xavier teases 

"Don't call me that." He doesn't have the right after he killed the person who called me that. 

"Your breast looks uncomfortable swollen and painful, I'm just trying to help. I promise I won't even touch them, just help you relieve the pain." 

"No. Now if you'll excuse I need to shower." I shut down the idea in his head. 

"Suit yourself, bathroom is to your left." He points to the closed door before jumping on the bed. Heading in, I strip making sure the lock clicked behind me before getting in the hot shower. I did some massaging tricks to help unclog but it didn't help, my boobs were as hard as a rock. I stay underneath the pouring water, can I actually trust Xavier and his mysterious plan. I knew I couldn't get out of here without his help and now he's told me Alan and my father was involved. These were the people who hurt and betrayed me in the past and they wanted me to put my life and my daughter life in their hands. Not going to happen, I keep looking for a way out myself. 

"Okay! You can help me." I say when I walked out of the bathroom holding a glass cup. Xavier lay in bed resting on his hands. 

"What?" He looked at me, I was still wet and had a towel wrapped around me. 

"I need you to suck out the milk." His eyes widened for a second, 

"Sure, erm okay. I can do that." He gets up awkwardly.

"Only if you still want to," I say, he did offer. "All you have to do is suck and spit it out. No milk should come out from now." I hurriedly explain. 

"Come here, Vanessa." He says. I seat at the edge of the bed and he falls to his knees in front of me. His breathing changed as I untied the towel around my chest. His eyes are soft and warm, he placed his hands on both sides and tilts his head to the side. 

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