Became an Academy Spearman

55. Is dating between cadets right? is not right

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“Carly?”

“…uh?”

“Who are you looking at like that?”

“Oh, no. nothing.”

At the words of ‘Esia’, the instructor of the A4 class, Kali awkwardly shook her head. As she naturally sat down in the cafe, Esia calmly faced Carly and sat her body down.

Shrek.

A woman with pure white silver hair that fell down to her waist and her eyes lit up with curiosity. Essia looked at her abruptly at her Carly and burst into laughter as if she knew it.

“Carly. Are you still not used to seeing cadets like this after being on the battlefield?”

“It’s not like that.”

“a. After that, there’s been a lot of talk about you lately? I heard that he even apologized directly to the C class cadets. I don’t know what’s going on, but I was very surprised that you did that to your personality. What the hell happened?”

“It’s… I just apologized because I made some mistakes.”

“If that’s the case, I would have called a cadet separately and said that I was sorry. Even if you apologize in front of all the other cadets, your reputation is still there… … .”

“It’s… just by chance. That’s how things happened. Essia, I’m a little embarrassed, can you stop talking about that?”

“Ah Okay.”

Later, when Essia called her waiter and started ordering, Carly looked around her as if she was looking around, but then she looked at her again.

window seat.

Han Cheon-seong, who was sitting with Doo, an A-class girl who stood out to anyone, looked blankly at her.

“So, Carly. how is it? Being an academy instructor, is it worth it?”

“…not difficult. It’s just teaching.”

“Is it okay if I go through something like that? At least I like it because I feel much more comfortable than being on the battlefield. They say they are staying at the academy for a break, but I also want to settle down at the academy right now.”

“I’m even thinking about setting up an academy… ?”

“yes. Teaching the cadets is quite rewarding, and seeing the brightly colored children is also cute. And I don’t have to be on the battlefield to do my job.”

As Essia carefully expressed her opinion, Kali slowly nodded her head.

‘Maybe this path may be right for Essia.’

Even thinking about it… the feeling was strange.

Her chest is strangely tickled, while discomfort lingers for no apparent reason.

Obviously, when I entered the cafe with Essia, I didn’t feel like this… .

Then, as I glanced back again, I thought about it.

‘Is her name probably Glesia?’

The blue-haired Yeosaengdo was familiar to me too. Because she was the cadet she graded with on the entrance exam.

All of the other examiners gave almost the best grades, and I was also a cadet who gave pretty high grades.

good.

“Fruit parfait and chocolate cake. came out. Have a good time.”

“thanks.”

She answered lightly, and her lips faltered while she straightened her gaze to Shia’s voice.

‘Obviously… the cadet Han Cheon-seong told me that I was misunderstood.’

When a cadet Han Cheon-seong explained to me that he had no thoughts about dating. I believed the cadet’s words.

Because I blamed myself a lot for my rash actions two days ago.

The moment we had a conversation was obviously brief, but I could feel the sincerity of the Han Cheon-seong cadets who value hard work and how devoted they are to their studies.

By the way… .

what does that look like now

“Carly?”

“yes?”

“Are you a little weird today? why are you so dumb Then the parfait will all melt.”

As I awkwardly raised the spoon at Essia’s words, I felt like an idiot for nothing.

‘What are you thinking… .’

Today was the weekend.

And even though he was a cadet, her privacy was strictly guarded.

No matter what the cadets do on the weekend, it’s too much for the instructor to interfere with that. Even if I am strict within the lecture, I thought it was right for me to set aside free time other than that.

Shrek.

As he scooped the parfait and brought it to his mouth, he nodded slightly.

‘okay. Let’s stop worrying about the cadets.’

…Although the image of a cadet Han Cheon-seong with a female student named Glacier left a big question in my mind, I struggled to suppress it.

“Essia. The parfait here is delicious.”

“right!? One of the reasons why I want to stay at the academy is that the cafe here has a fair share too? The fruit parfait is really delicious.”

As Essia smiled as if she was happy, I laughed too.

A child who was always depressed when he was on the battlefield smiled so happily inside the academy, so seeing Essia seemed to ease my mind a bit.

…

So many words followed.

Perhaps it was because Essia came to the academy a few months early, and there were quite a few good words that were good enough to listen to while telling me about my life as an instructor.

How to adjust the intensity of lectures, and it is important to create an opportunity for cadets to work voluntarily. Don’t give too much attention to the cadets, etc.

There were quite a few words.

And many of those words touched my heart.

…because it seemed like a perfect fit for my situation.

‘Even if I say I have a preference for Han Cheon-sung cadets, my interest is definitely excessive.’

It seemed that I had to reduce my attention a little.

Even if I thought I would help the Hancheonseong cadets, it was strange to be aware of the cadets outside of lectures.

He and I clearly had positions as instructors and cadets. I needed to calm my interest a bit.

“ah. and Carly. It’s about dating between cadets.”

“…uh.”

“I wanted to tell you in advance because if I were Kali, I would think dating would be very bad. Even if you don’t know right now, after some time, you won’t be able to stop the cadets from dating each other. They say they like each other, and you can see that their attitudes are getting looser? Why did we have kids who fell in love even when we were at the academy? But… I heard this from a senior instructor and he said there was nothing he could do about it. The cadets who are dating tell me to do it well if they know how to do it, or just leave it alone.”

In particular, he inadvertently paused to emphasize.

Previously, I had accepted all the other words well, but now I cannot accept Essia’s words as well.

“Essia. Why are you telling me to let the cadets fall in love?”

“Why? You just explained it before. No matter what you do, you can’t stop dating? At the age of 20, we’re at the peak of our fire, so if we say we’ll like each other, will that stop it? It’s just unavoidable.”

Essia tells me to go lightly, but no matter how much I think about it, it means something… .

It didn’t seem like something.

If you are an instructor, I think, so that the cadets can go on the right path. He was someone to help and care for.

In particular, he thought that instructors should pay more attention to cadets with brilliant characteristics or talents, such as gemstones.

“Essia. I don’t think I’m like that.”

“…yes?”

“If it is a cadet who lacks both talents and talents, even if he is culled, there is nothing he can do about it. If even one of them is an outstanding cadet…? Shouldn’t we properly guide and show the way forward?”

“Uh… what. Carly, you’re right. If you are a good cadet, we want you to do better too.”

“Is that so? So. I think dating between cadets should be avoided as much as possible. It’s not about accepting that it’s unavoidable. Even if it was unavoidable, at that time, it was his development rather than a relationship. We need to focus on effort and teach them to look forward.”

As I continued to speak, my head nodded at my words.

Why does the instructor have to just watch the cadets diverge?

Of course, cadets can like each other. Because it’s a natural feeling. But I thought I needed to “get over” those natural feelings too.

Age is the most important period when traits are assigned and traits are established. At that time, I had to work the hardest, and after that, I didn’t even have a chance to develop the trait.

Because there is a time when the characteristics also grow.

When you leave the academy, there is no instructor to guide you directly, and no one tells you what to do.

Most of the cadets became self-reliant after graduating, and their tendencies were solidified.

“Hey… Carly?”

“uh.”

“I’m saying this just in case, but even if you are dating cadets, don’t overreact like you are now. I know you’re right If an outstanding cadet is in a relationship and doesn’t work hard, it’s heartbreaking as an instructor. But it won’t be as you think. No matter how hard you try to persuade, how can you deceive your feelings of love? Would it be too hard for a cadet?”

…while quietly listening to Essia’s words. I couldn’t understand any more.

“You mean the cadets can’t control their emotions?”

“…that’s twenty years old. He’s practically the same age as a kid, but wouldn’t that be good if the kids refrained from it?”

“Then we should make ourselves restrained.”

Essia, who opened her mouth blankly at my words, let out a deep sigh.

“Cali.”

“…Say it.”

At her calm voice, I couldn’t yield this much.

“I’m just asking, just in case, that we haven’t been in a relationship or that we shouldn’t date even a freshman… Isn’t there such a bad feeling?”

Suddenly, he said something unexpected, and he was stunned for a moment.

I was so excited that I even laughed out loud.

“Essia. What the heck is that nonsense…?”

“no. Just in case… I thought you were overreacting. You’re teaching the first cadets now. In the past, when my classmates were dating, I didn’t care much, but I thought they were too strict with their cadets.”

Essia was gently trying to loosen her mood, and even though I knew what it meant, I suddenly felt like I was being beaten.

“Essia… we are now twenty-five.”

“right.”

“If you want to be in a relationship, you can do anything with bare words, right? It’s just that we’re not dating voluntarily. Why are you suddenly saying that? Disappointing listeners… .”

It was really embarrassing to say the least.

I’m not in a relationship, so it’s not negative for a cadet’s relationship. What kind of nonsense is Essia talking about?

I didn’t object to her words with that feeling now.

I could assert that I was doing it with a pure heart for cadets.

“I’m sorry if I felt bad… But lately I’ve been feeling a little weird. It’s true that the wedding will be delayed if we come back from the battlefield. At twenty-five, as you said, I’m still very young… .”

“…do?”

“It’s still there. Do I sometimes feel like that? It’s a strange thought that I’d rather try dating when I was a cadet. Even if I return to the academy and become an instructor, I honestly can’t find a man I like… Do I have to say that there are moments when a relationship shines like a characteristic? That’s something you’ll regret later.”

Even at Essia’s words, I frowned for nothing.

It was nice to see Essia looking so bright at her academy now. But she didn’t know why she was so curious about her personal feelings and love.

If I had actually experienced the weight of the battlefield, I would not have felt that way at all because the future of the empire was uncertain right now.

“Essia. I know what you’re trying to say But it’s never what you think. I just do it because I think of cadets. Please do not misunderstand me.”

“okay? I’m sorry then… I said something offensive for nothing. So Carly. Who are you?”

“…uh?”

“There are cadets that you are paying attention to right now. Who the hell is that cadet?”

When Essia asked with her strange eyes, she was momentarily perplexed.

“…”

And I didn’t know why I was confused.

Esia’s question was not at all a strange one, and she just had to answer it calmly.

But… without realizing it, I hesitated for a moment and no words came out.

“yes? Carly~ Who the hell is it that you are so passionate and interested in me? I’m really curious. Can you tell between us? yes?”

As Essia asked again with her curious eyes, I was finally able to open my mouth.

“…they are called Hancheonseong cadets.”

“Han Cheonseong… Cadet. ah! A cadet who ended up in a draw with Leonhardt?”

“right. That cadet.”

“no wonder. Carly, why did you suddenly want to have a fever? Well, if it’s a cadet like that, I can admit it. It’s a common trait that’s the only draw with legendary Leonhardt, how the heck you put a lot of effort into it.”

Even as she nodded slowly at Essia’s words, a part of her heart was filled with pride.

…Of course, I couldn’t directly help the outcome of the Dalian achieved by the Han Cheonseong cadets. Still, the cadets I’m teaching are correct.

When I heard Han Cheon-seong’s praise from my friend’s mouth, my heart tickled and I was proud.

‘Yeah, even if it was just for a day, we practiced together… and it helped me a lot.’

The Hancheonseong cadets were definitely worth it.

So, without realizing it, I glanced again.

At the window seat where the Hancheonseong cadets are… .

tuk.

I lost strength from the spoon I was inadvertently holding.

I just looked at it, and it felt like my heart was sinking coldly.

“Carly. Why all of a sudden?”

“…no. just. nothing. Nothing.”

Even as he turned his head creakingly… The image of the cadet he looked at a while ago seemed to dazzle in the corners of his eyes.

Glacier, holding hands with the rest of her life.

The appearance of a cadet Han Cheon-seong with a faint smile… .

“Essia.”

“yes?”

“After all, I don’t think dating between cadets is right.”

“That, right? If you were… it would be. I think enough… I can do it.”

As I looked at Essia, who was bewildered by my resolute words, my heart was set.

After tomorrow’s lecture, the Hancheonseong cadets needed to be properly instructed.

No matter how much I think about it, it already looks like that…

It didn’t seem right.