Became an Academy Spearman

76. Karite Esildern

***

again.

again.

The sound of footsteps walking through the hallways of the academy resonated with uneasiness.

Seeing the female cadet walking out of focus, even though the cadets around her looked at her strangely, she just continued to walk.

“……”

Anxiety, crisis, nervousness… .

In addition to that, various secondary emotions do not leave my mind for a second.

The feeling that all the bad things happen overlapping and that something bad is about to happen.

The attributes he was given, his family name, his family, and many other things to look good on, Karite Esildern. She didn’t feel that way at all.

Four years ago, I suddenly felt uneasy.

No matter what I did or where I was, one side of my mind was always surrounded by anxiety.

It was as if someone intangible was whispering in my ear over and over again.

-Can you be the only one who is happy enough to live?

– I’m sad.

– How many people live because they can’t die.

-Why are you the only one so happy?

– Please die.

Besides that, all kinds of negative words seemed to endlessly linger in my ears.

I don’t know why, I don’t even know the specific reason.

I tried complaining to my trusted family, but I couldn’t get an answer.

Even if I called a famous healer or priest of the church, it had no effect on me. Even the holy water, which was said to be difficult to obtain, was obtained, but the effect was only temporary. The unknown symptoms did not completely disappear.

Then, before I knew it, I received strange stares from the people around me.

ㅡStrange child… .

ㅡOriginally, I wasn’t such a weird kid… .

—-Could Lady Karite… have a mental problem?

The moment I accidentally overheard their words as if they were chattering in my absence.

I can no longer complain of my symptoms to anyone.

No matter how much I say and explain, it doesn’t reach me. There is no right answer either.

Because no one else understands me at all.

How hard it is mentally, how painful, how painful it is… how heavy it is to even breathe, because they don’t know my situation at all.

Suddenly, I felt isolated from everyone.

“…….”

In my blank vision, I could see the eyes of several cadets who were still looking at me. I didn’t even want to see them looking at me with unusual eyes, as if I was weird.

So, naturally, I set my gaze down.

I’ve been in this state for several years now from the inside, but I thought it would be too hard to bear if I received that kind of attention from the outside.

again.

So naturally, the pace of walking became a little faster.

‘now.’

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Just go back to the dorm and sleep.

As long as you sleep, you can escape from this anxiety. At least while I was asleep, I could not be bothered.

In recent years, my sleep time has increased ridiculously.

Sleeping more than 13 hours a day. For more than half of the day I was not awake.

…When the given characteristics came out high, there were still expectations from my family. I didn’t feel that I had changed in the slightest.

There was not even a will to evolve traits or move forward.

‘What if it’s a unique attribute?’

I can’t look ahead at all.

In this state, even if I want to see the front, I can’t see it… .

“… … Lee Te! Karite Esildern!”

Took a sound that seemed to be calling me. My steps stopped.

Turning my head blankly, I saw a male cadet there. Black eyes, which are rare under black hair, and even features that are distinct from others.

‘who?’

It was the first cadet I saw.

“Do you have a moment?”

“…hour?”

“uh. Because it’s good even for a while I wanted to talk.”

Looking at me, the voice with the power to speak made me hesitate. I couldn’t figure out why this person suddenly approached me.

Then, a strange voice was heard from the cadets nearby.

ㅡWow. what?

ㅡAren’t you very reckless when you talk?

ㅡ him. Isn’t it agar?

And among them, there was a name I had heard several times.

“…Agar?”

When I looked at the man casually and asked, the man smiled lightly.

“right. And it really only takes a moment. Yes, there is something I really want to talk to you about. This will surely help you too.”

A confident voice, I couldn’t understand even that.

Why is this man talking to me? Why are you expressing interest?

agaric. I’ve heard that name a few times too.

‘Why is the man who made a sparring with Leonhard, the senior this year… .’

There was nothing that could be called a point of contact between me and this Han Chun-seong. We met today for the first time, and even though we have different classes… .

“why?”

So instead of accepting, I ended up asking.

“If you ask why… Can we still talk for a moment? I think it would be better if we could talk in a cafe or something.”

The man who said it over and over again looked desperate for some reason.

…even though there’s absolutely no reason to. It seemed like he was trying to hang out with me.

After thinking about it for a bit, the man stopped talking.

—-This will surely help you.

A confident voice couldn’t have done that, but it felt as if he knew well what situation I was in.

“Then 30 minutes.”

I came to accept it without even realizing it.

I wonder if… Maybe it’s because the thought that I don’t know suddenly came up.

“About 30 minutes is enough. Then let’s go right away.”

Afterwards, a man with a bright smile immediately took the lead, and I felt so strange even as I kept pace with him.

‘Doesn’t this man seem strange to me?’

I was clearly aware of how I would appear to others.

Dark complexion, lack of energy, lack of energy… Because there will be an atmosphere that is difficult to approach easily.

While giving glances sideways, I naturally looked up due to the height difference.

‘Why did Han Chun-seong come to me?’

I really couldn’t figure it out.

But since he was the one who came to me after a long time, I wanted to hang out with him rather than avoid him.

because it’s me

Because I wanted to… I wasn’t isolated like this even at the academy.

***

good.

When I handed over the kiwi latte on the tray, Karite nodded awkwardly.

“thank you.”

“no.”

While answering, I was now relieved.

‘I wondered what would happen if I refused.’

A little while ago, I had no choice but to talk to Karite even though I knew that the cadets around me were seeing us. If I miss Karite today, I don’t know when I’ll have another chance next time.

It’s strange for other people that I’m looking for a girl with a different class.

Fortunately, Karite accepted my words, and looking at Karite, I seemed to see some hope.

‘I can change the future enough.’

I organized my thoughts while holding my share of kiwi latte.

The first accident and the first episode of the Groa worldview that will happen next week. I didn’t even know exactly why it happened.

But I knew what would happen.

ㅡConditions of offerings.

An episode with an ominous name.

Unfortunately, an accident happens in the ‘Yurea Forest’, where all the cadets from Class A to D take an outdoor lecture. The total number of cadets who died as a result of the accident was around five. Among them, Karite’s name is mentioned the most in the work.

Because her negative energy was the greatest.

The names of the other cadets who were sacrificed are unknown because they are not mentioned in the story. At least I can block Karite in front of me now.

No, I had to block it.

“…”

Even now, with the straw of Kiwi Latte in her mouth, she could see Karite glancing at her.

Seeing her up close, it was clear that she felt different from the other cadets.

It was clear from his face that he was feeling emotionally anxious or in an abnormal state.

After taking a sip of the kiwi latte, he immediately opened his mouth.

“Karite.”

“yes.”

“This may sound like a farce to you, but in fact, when I saw your complexion in the classroom today, it looked so bad that I couldn’t just pass it by.”

I tried to close the distance little by little while carefully taking luck.

First, Karite’s negative emotions. I had to know why.

“…I just couldn’t get past it.”

Karite, muttering my words, suddenly narrowed her eyes.

I nodded my head at that, and Karite licked her lips and let out a sigh.

“It’s just… I was originally like this. It’s been like this for years, so it’s not particularly strange to me.”

Suddenly, he spoke with a self-deprecating smile, but he couldn’t pass the words.

“few years ago?”

“uh. Maybe it was 4 years ago. Since then, my condition has always been like this.”

Karite, who responded calmly to my words, looked as if she had given up.

As if there was nothing they could do about it, as if it was something like force majeure, so it was natural for them to be in this state… .

But I couldn’t understand the words.

“If it’s from four years ago… that means you weren’t like this before then.”

“right. Even before that, I was very good.”

Karite, who responded calmly to my words, looked at me as if something was wrong. But to me, Karite looked more strange.

“Karite. Didn’t something happen four years ago that triggered it?”

“…There was nothing, nothing.”

“Is there really, really nothing?”

I thought it couldn’t be possible even though I asked again and again.

People have changed so much, but did nothing really happen? It was nonsense.

Karite, who thought for a moment as if thinking about my words, let out a small sigh.

“Agar Castle. Do you also think that I am cursed?”

A voice that seemed to have already heard the same words as me.

And Karite’s resignation in that voice was felt even more deeply.

“Obviously it could be a curse, but I think there could be other reasons as well.”

Probably a hundred if a hundred. You must have seen that her condition changed like that because of the curse, but I didn’t place the possibility only on the curse.

The various incidents and disasters that occurred in the future were far from ordinary reason.

Because there are so many unreasonable things that I wonder how much the writer wants to roll Leonhard. If so, I thought that something like that might have happened to Karite as well.

“…another reason?”

“You don’t know. It wasn’t a curse, but something else might have triggered it. Four years ago, I want you to explain to me in detail how and when. Will it be difficult?”

I was careful when I said it.

I didn’t know if it was a trauma or a memory I didn’t want to recall.

Still, I had to know.

so that I can help her.

A person is facing death, but I couldn’t just leave it alone.

“……”

Karite, who didn’t say anything at my words, seemed to be worried.

Cautious to take out, hesitant to speak.

“I think it’s better to talk about it than to keep things in your mind. After you talk about it, you feel more at ease or a little lighter. Anxiety or nervousness disappears…”

So I reached out to her a little more.

Many people will be by your side when a person is on the rise and going well, but I thought that people need other people more when they are having a hard time.

When you are tired and tired, and when your heart is broken. It would be best if he could stand up on his own, but sometimes he needed help to stand up properly.

Because not everyone can live with a strong will.

And now. Karite in front of me seemed desperate for such help.

Someone who will reach out to her so she can stand up easily, and erase the negative emotions that fill her heart.

“…….”

Karite, who had always looked down, suddenly met my gaze with me.

The gloomy, sunken light blue eyes he encountered were quite different.

As if negative emotions had already consumed Karite’s whole body. I could tell just by looking into her eyes how weak her heart was now.

So, without avoiding her gaze, I met her.

“Karite. Can’t I…?”

Opening her mouth again and again, I wanted to extend my hand so that she could speak easily.

If reaching out once isn’t enough, reaching out several times will make it easier for her to ask for help.

“…”

As I watched Karite’s eyes shake for a moment, I made up my mind even more.

can save her

Even if it was the first person I saw today, I couldn’t let it die a few days later.