Became an Academy Spearman

89. You said you could do it

***

Seruk.

Even as they slowly moved their bodies together, Glessia had been curious for the past few days.

‘What does it feel like to hug a friend?’

There were times in the past when I couldn’t understand looking at other people. And among them, I couldn’t quite understand that I was hugging a friend.

when happy or sad. Or people who hug each other for nothing. Even though the other person is not even a family member, he allows his body too easily.

I was so excited to see it.

When you give your arms without hesitation or when you are hugged by someone else. What kind of feelings do people act like that… .

Because I only felt that way from my older sister. In fact, the feeling of being hugged by my sister was just nice because it was always cozy and cozy.

Because I can feel the warmth of family.

So I was curious.

Other people have experienced things that I have not done so easily, and I wonder if there is such a meaning.

And now I was finally putting it into practice.

The feeling I felt when I leaned into Han Chun-seong’s arms was very… strange.

“…Glesia?”

Even Han Chun-seong’s voice, which sounded a little louder, felt different than usual.

“Agar Castle. You said you could do it.”

Still, there was no hesitation in answering.

Before taking action, I asked Han Chun-seong first, and I was told that it was okay.

Moreover, we exchanged words with each other several times as friends. So, it was as if I had repeatedly asked for his consent.

“No, I must have said that…”

Despite the panicking voice, I focused on the feeling of this moment leaning on my arms.

It’s a very obvious thing to say, but the feeling was different from when I was hugged by my sister and now being hugged by Han Chun-seong.

It was so much… different.

‘Is this what it feels like to be hugged among friends?’

Something was different from what I thought. It also feels very different.

It didn’t feel comfortable.

It’s not warm or cozy like a sister’s arms. Rather, I felt a strange feeling that made me a little more nervous.

At the same time, one side of the chest tickled… A strange feeling that can’t be easily explained in words.

Perhaps it was because I was clumsily leaning on it, so I raised my hands like when I was hugged by my sister.

Seruk!

Rather than leaning on it, I held Han Chun-seong a little more strongly.

“Uh, over there!? Glesia?”

I could feel the panic in his voice, but since I was already in action, I couldn’t stop. Because I think you should get the result you deserve.

Why did I hug my friend, because I wanted to get that feeling properly.

“…something is strange.”

However, still confused, I decided to express my feelings as they are.

“Why are you… doing this all of a sudden?”

“There is just no big reason. I’ve seen friends hugging like this in various situations. I hug you when I’m really happy or sad, or for no reason… Seeing myself holding you like this, I think it’s very different from what I thought.”

Even as I said it, I felt embarrassed.

I knew that the act of hugging between friends is an expression of friendship.

But even so… .

‘Is it normal to have this strange feeling between friends?’

Even now, my feelings were just weird.

Rather than feeling a vague sense of happiness, like hugging my sister, I was a little embarrassed. Seeing it like this, moreover, there was definitely a different side to what I saw on the outside.

“…How to say, it’s very hard.”

Even as I said it, it really was.

The appearance of Han Chun-seong’s body was slim, and despite holding a fairly heavy spear, he didn’t feel like he was building muscles like other short-range cadets.

“Everything is solid.”

“I just said your body is hard.”

Saying that, he slowly lifted his head from his arms.

When I looked up in her arms, she always looked at me with a bright smile.

Even that was different now.

“……”

Han Chun-seong, who was completely different from her sister, had a different feeling from before.

“…!”

As soon as our eyes met, the dark eyes wandering wide, the red cheeks, the stretched lips hesitantly… .

“Agar Castle. Are my actions so embarrassing?”

“Yeah, of course… embarrassing. If you act suddenly like this, anyone else will be taken aback.”

You can’t meet my eyes while answering. I also understand a little bit like that.

‘but.’

If Han Chun-seong had acted the same way to me on the contrary, I would not have been taken aback.

But when you think about it, it was a little strange.

“Agar Castle. I said that first You said you would do what’s right between friends, and you obviously agreed with what I said.”

Seriously, I didn’t act so suddenly.

I said in advance that I would do it, and Han Chun-sung clearly gave me the answer ‘I can do it’.

“……”

Han Chun-seong, who did not respond to my words, met my eyes only then.

I blankly blinked and put my eyes in those eyes, as if I had heard something unexpected.

‘…Isn’t that something you do between friends?’

So, without realizing it, I thought about it again. A hug between friends is something you can do, and I’ve seen it quite often.

It’s a sign of affection. I thought it was physical contact to express affection and to be close to each other.

To Han Chun-seong, it seemed like a really big move that would surprise him. Let’s think about it, stop. I also felt awkward about this situation.

“Because you are so embarrassed. Then… I’ll stop here too.”

Gradually, I let go of the strength in both hands holding the agar star.

As I untied the arms that were holding my waist and pulled my body away… I vaguely felt it.

That Han Chun-seong’s body had been stiff ever since the moment I leaned on it.

…Let’s separate ourselves while being conscious of it.

“Whoa… .”

Only then did Han Chun-seong sigh loudly.

“…don’t sigh in front of people.”

“okay. sorry… .”

It’s a voice that seems to be exhausted as it looks at me, but a peek laugh leaked out and I still kept an eye on it.

Han Chun-seong, after all, did not reject me.

Even if I did something that only a friend could do, he just accepted it. Although he looked flustered and unnatural, he didn’t seem to reject me or reject me.

“After all, we are friends.”

So I could say that again.

It was definitely a very different feeling from hugging with a friend I thought, but I could definitely feel that I was still friends with Han Chun-sung.

“Glesia. Really… we’re friends… right?”

At that moment, Han Chun-seong replied with a strange expression on his face, and I said it again as if it were natural.

“yes. Since we’re friends, can’t we just act like that?”

***

again.

Along with the sound of footsteps, the characteristic blue hair is gradually moving away from my sight.

It’s late at night, now that I’m parting with Glesia.

My mood continued to fluctuate greatly.

pop.

Glesia, who had been walking away, stopped for a moment and turned to me.

Seruk. As I did last time, I turned around and waved my hand this time, and even as I blankly followed Glesia and waved my hand… I hesitated on my lips again.

I really felt like I had become a strange person.

After acting like that, Glesia treats me as usual, so how should I accept it?

really.

‘A friend… .’

Glesia suddenly hugged me. And on the way, I vividly remembered everything until the moment when he hugged me with a little more strength.

Even now, it seems like there are traces of her on my body.

You had no idea how embarrassed I was at that moment.

After the moment I fell from this world, I was shocked the next time.

Glesia, who had been waving at me, headed towards the dormitory with a small smile, and as I slowly lowered the hand I was waving, I sighed again.

“Are we really friends? .”

As I murmured, a hollow laugh leaked out.

Since when did the concept of a friend I know change like this? I was really grateful for that moment when Glesia told me that she was my first friend… .

Now it feels completely different.

He said he hugged me and leaned on my arms when he was my first friend. Ironically, I feel that I am fortunate to be Glesia’s ‘first’.

‘If it had been someone other than me… .’

He must have tried to use Glesia. A lot of bad thoughts came to my mind in an instant.

Being pure definitely had its pros and cons. And the innocence of Glesia that I saw had a unique aspect that is not enough to be simply said to be pure.

Thinking about it, I involuntarily shook my head.

“I will do better in the future.”

Even now, it was as if a strange heat was still running through her whole body.

The feeling of a soft female body. Because of that, the heat naturally rose in my body.

Moreover, since Glesia has a nice body, the softness I feel when she is hugged by me… … .

“…”

Thinking about it, I bit my lip.

I shook my head and made up my mind.

“Yeah, we’re friends…”

I just didn’t want to feel any other feelings for her.

So, I had to stop thinking about it here.

that buck

Even as I moved to go back to the dormitory, my heart continued to waver.

…

clap.

As I closed the door and entered the room, I slowly took off my cadet uniform.

Squeak.

Even as I hung up my cadet uniform on a hanger, I felt like today was over somehow.

I don’t know how the day passed, but looking back, there were so many things.

When I woke up, I met Millia and Adelia in the infirmary, and at the training room to get clues about skills, various stories in Carly’s office, and finally meeting Glesia… .

My day didn’t seem to last 24 hours.

It feels like 48 hours is enough. There are obviously relationships with many people at the base of it, so it was ambiguous for me to adjust it at will.

“I can’t see this being bad.”

Still, I sometimes felt like I could do this.

It was good to be friends with many people. However, since the only people I hang out with are attractive people, I can clearly feel my concern that I might get swept away by the emotions of the moment.

In case I give my heart to someone… .

‘If only I could control my mind.’

We could all be on good terms. I just laughed at myself who kept shaking.

He shook his head slowly and quickly picked up a white towel.

clap.

As soon as you enter the shower, spin the magic stone.

shoot it

I left my body in the warm stream and confided my various thoughts.

Now I had to think about tomorrow.

I need to meet Karite and check her condition more properly.

“But… it will be fine.”

I thought I would be fine just talking to her like on Thursday.

If she is emotionally stable a little bit, I can see that all I have to do is to do it.

…The clues to my skills are also clues, but above all, Karite’s emotional stability. That was a prerequisite.

“Karite needs to feel a little less negative.”