Became an Academy Spearman

90. Because I want to, because you care

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next Saturday.

The time passed by in the morning and approached lunch. My body ached as I headed to the cafe, the meeting place.

“Even though I slept so much. It doesn’t look like he slept.”

Even as he spoke, his steps were heavy.

Today was the weekend, so I woke up a little later than usual. Enough to say that I slept for almost 10 hours.

However, the accumulated fatigue in my body did not feel completely relieved.

Yesterday, too, I had the feeling that my body was overworked, but the aftermath seemed to be felt even more today.

‘It’s not good.’

I shouldn’t have neglected Karite today.

Still, my limbs feel heavy. It was as if my body was appealing to me, as if the body could not recover from a short break.

I need to rest more… .

As I was alerted to this, a sigh leaked out of my mouth.

“But hold on a little longer…”

He patted my cheek lightly while muttering with a small wind.

In addition, I couldn’t meet Karite with this kind of heart.

Because with a half-hearted attitude, I could make a mistake with her. Being in the position of having to take care of Karite, it was absolutely wrong for me to show a weak side.

As I opened the door of the cafe in front of me, I made up my mind.

Rеаd at ոоbӏеmtӏ.соm

Jingle.

With the sound of small bells ringing, I could see numerous cadets seated in the cafe as it was the weekend.

It was obviously a cafe that only cadets who entered this year could use, but the seats were filled to the brim.

that buck

As I walked between the tables, I naturally looked around.

‘Where is Karite?’

It wasn’t long before I found her.

It just stood out.

Really… strangely, the person standing alone stood out more than the group. I don’t know if it’s me that makes me feel that way, but it was so easy to find Karite.

glimpse. Glance.

The people around her looked at Karite in wonder and kept their distance, so it seemed to attract more attention.

that buck

Even as he turned to Karite, the gazes of those people felt uncomfortable.

‘I think they see it that way because of Karite’s atmosphere.’

Even so, do I really have to look at it like that?

Karite looking at the table with her head bowed as if that gaze was burdensome… I felt uncomfortable for no reason.

Obviously, I can’t say that Karite doesn’t have such a strange atmosphere, but it’s all because of circumstances.

“Karite.”

As I called out to her and naturally sat across from her, Karite blankly raised her head.

“…Agar-star.”

And as soon as he saw me, he called me by name, and even as I met her eyes, I was startled for a moment.

‘It looks worse.’

Karite’s condition seemed worse now than when they met two days ago.

The gloomy complexion that ruined her appearance, the completely sunken expression and the dead eyes, seemed even darker.

“So did you order?”

Still, I spoke calmly.

“No… not yet.”

“okay? then i will order Karite, what kind of dessert do you like?”

It was the first time we met the other day, so I awkwardly drank a kiwi latte, but today, the second time, I spoke to her in a more friendly way.

“…anything.”

Even so, when she continued to answer in a subdued voice, I sighed inwardly and picked up the menu board that was lying there.

He unfolded the menu and handed it to her.

“Nothing. Let’s look around the menu a bit more and order. I like apple pie, do you have a favorite fruit? Fruit desserts here are pretty good, so you can look forward to it.”

I forced myself to speak brightly.

I’m not in a good physical condition right now, but even I couldn’t calm down at Karite’s gloom. Rather, as much as she became dark, I had to speak brighter and lead the atmosphere.

“……”

Karite casts a blank gaze even after continuing to speak.

She wasn’t even looking at the nicely laid out menu. Rather, he gave me more eyes and hesitated his lips.

…I couldn’t fully understand why she was the way she was.

‘Is it really that hard?’

Compared to the physical hardship I am now, Karite was like suffering from a chronic mental illness. It was as if even the cause had suffered damage over the years.

That’s why I didn’t urge Karite, who had met my eyes.

I knew from experience that the more I can’t afford my mind like now, the more I need someone to wait by my side.

As we ran into her without avoiding her gaze, Karite spoke very carefully.

“Me too, then with apple pie… .”

“okay? Your taste in desserts must be similar to mine. What kind of drink do you like?”

When I smiled at my words, Karite finally looked at the menu.

When I turned over the menu and pointed to the beverage category, Karite blinked slightly.

“I’ll have a strawberry latte.”

“Then I’ll make a strawberry latte, and I’ll order it right away and come back.”

As soon as I decided on the menu, I got up again. I was thinking of ordering right away.

“Agar Castle.”

“why?”

I looked at the unexpected call to see if there was anything else to order.

“…go with me.”

When Karite stood up after me, I accepted it as it was.

As they walked to the counter with different footsteps. Today I checked again what I should do.

‘Let’s talk at a cafe, go to the park, or go around to give Karite some energy.”

Until 9 o’clock today, when I had a training session with Kali, I was thinking of fully focusing on Karite.

“Are you… are you okay?”

“It’s okay. what?”

Then, when I turned my head at the sound I heard, Karite looked at me curiously and then shook her head.

“No, nothing.”

I wondered what the hell he was talking about, but I lightly finished my order at the counter.

After waiting for a while, I was able to return to my seat with a tray of desserts and drinks I ordered.

good.

I handed the apple pie on the tray to Karite first, but also brought my own apple pie right away.

First of all, I took a sip of strawberry latte and drank tea.

Even at that moment, I felt a deep gaze.

In fact, even when you go to order, and even at the moment you order. And even now, after coming back and sitting together like this, I had to continue to feel their gaze.

There were other cadets looking at me, but the subject of that gaze was mainly Karite.

‘Do you have anything to say?’

Thinking of that, we met our eyes, and Karite immediately avoided looking at me and picked up her strawberry latte. Even that appearance felt very strange.

‘It doesn’t seem like he’s against me.’

Compared to two days ago, Karite’s attitude was strangely felt.

“Karite. Are you still a little anxious?”

Still, I said that it would be okay if I did it this way.

“Now…it’s much better.”

“Then you’re saying you were anxious again before.”

“yes. But… this is pretty normal to me now.”

She answered while gently removing the straw, but for a moment I was worried about what to answer.

I know Karite is having a hard time mentally right now.

However, it is ambiguous how to help her right now. She tries to dismiss the hardships as normal, but I couldn’t treat her as casually as I said.

Should I take it lightly, or should I be more concerned? I had some trouble.

But after a little thought, I was able to open my mouth.

“Even if it’s normal, it’s difficult to be difficult.”

And the answer I chose was a little more worrying.

That’s why I shouldn’t treat her easily. I couldn’t say I knew how hard it was for her.

“…”

When Karite paused for a moment, I calmly and naturally cut the apple pie with a knife.

snap.

When I dipped the apple pie that I divided into small pieces with a fork and brought it to my mouth, I naturally smiled at the rich flavor of the flesh from the outside.

“delicious.”

“…tasty?”

“yes. It’s really delicious.”

However, I had no intention of taking Karite very seriously again. I was strictly conscious of Karite, but I intended to treat her as normally as possible.

I was thinking of reaching out first so she could treat me comfortably, at least like a cadet in the same class.

Seruk.

Afterwards, Karite was seen holding a knife.

Then, as I did, I cut the apple pie and brought it to my mouth, but after tasting it, I nodded my head.

“…delicious.”

“right? The desserts here are pretty good.”

Let’s continue the conversation like that, but compared to seeing Karite for the first time today, I felt relieved.

The more we talked, Karite’s face brightened a little.

‘I’m willing to talk to you.’

It was not that difficult to form a consensus with her. So I was able to fit enough to fit her.

More than anything else, the big thing was that Karite didn’t refuse to talk to me.

…

The time continued as they exchanged light words and savored the apple pie.

Seruk.

The car was bringing the last piece of apple pie to its mouth.

“Agar Castle.”

At the unexpected call, I was told as it was.

“uh. Karite.”

“…how can you treat me casually?”

I put down the apple pie I was about to put in my mouth at the words I heard.

Even the corners of her eyes were blurry and she asked me, but she looked very serious.

“…”

Light-red eyes staring at me through the strangely disheveled light-blue hair.

Even as I gently put my fork down, I came up with a slightly different answer.

“Karite. Is it strange that I treat you?”

“To be honest, yes. Even the cadets in my class don’t try to approach me. Even though you were in a different class, you first saw me and approached me. Even after thinking about it for two days, I still don’t know why. Why are you being so kind to me, and whether you’re seeing me like you are now… .”

Karite, who calmly continued her words, did not hide her anxiously trembling eyes.

And those eyes seemed to be looking for the right answer.

“…”

So rather than answering immediately, I met her eyes and thought again.

‘I can do that.’

Karite’s words made sense. But the word itself sounded strange. As if there had to be some reason before I could approach Karite and be friendly like I am now.

Actually, there was a reason why I hang out with Karite now.

—-Because I can’t let people die right in front of my eyes.

The reason was virtually the same as all the reasons for meeting Karite, but I couldn’t reveal it as it was.

“Is it… difficult to answer?”

However, when Karite’s eyes widened as if she took my hesitation into a different meaning, I opened my mouth without thinking any further.

“I want to, because you care.”

While spitting out the answer as if I had heard it from someone. Coincidentally, at this moment, the only thing that came to my mind was that.

“…!”

Even as I looked at Karite’s wide-open eyes… I realized later that I had made a mistake, but I couldn’t turn it back.

“Are those words not enough?”

So I just pushed on.

‘Even if I get misunderstood, I can’t help it.’

Even if I seemed strange to her, I had to find a reason to cling to her.

I can’t say that I will die next week right away, and it’s strange that I’m meeting you out of simple worries. Right now Karite can understand the reason… Because that’s the only word.

“……”

I sighed inwardly as I looked at Karite, who avoided my gaze and hesitated on her lips.

It looks like you’ve been seriously misunderstood.

‘Because I can’t help it.’

Even so, I was just looking around.

I thought that there would be no such nonsense as facing Carly like the last time.

“…ah.”

I saw Luna looking at me with a surprised expression.

…And Luna’s presence at the café meant that Milia was soon there.