Endless Adventure

When did I change? I was always cold and calculative person in my past life. Now I'm too emotional, aggressive and sentimental.

In both of my lives I had a loving family. So it can't be because I've received a familial love. Is it the power? In my past life I had no power. Yes! I trained my body to its fullest but I was still a human. I would've died if someone shot me. But in here, in this life I could survive a rain of bullets. Did power blind me? Did it make me overconfident? No! It's not the power!

It's that I don't take this world for reality. In my past life I watched this world as a bystander. Of course I felt sad when certain people died. But I was still just an observer. But when I came here, made a family and bonded with others. That's when everything changed. I tried to make myself to truly like them, my new family that is. But I couldn't as I can't shake of the feeling that I'm just a bystander. That's why I easily killed Damon. I could've just fainted him and make him stop. But I killed him. I forced myself to love them, deep in my heart I wanted to love them as a family, but I couldn't. I wanted to show myself that I could be emotional, that I deeply care about my family.

I never thought of those people around me as real people because I know it's a fiction. I can't just shake off the feeling of being a bystander, an observer. When I tried to prove myself that I could be loving and caring, I tried too much. I created myself an emotional and aggressive persona.

But this world is real not some made up world. I feel pain here and I could die here. But also I know what happens in the future taking away any dander I could be in. I would just hide somewhere safe if I could and continue to just be an observer.

When I was thinking I already arrived at the mansion located right at the center of the Meteor City. It was the most important place in all of Meteor City and of course the most guarded place too.

I unsheathed my katana and slowly walked towards the mansion. I wanted to be as unnoticeable as possible because I don't want to scare them off. Slowly but surely I beheaded all the guards that guarded the mansion. After killing them all I entered the mansion. It was a meeting place and the house of the members of Assembly. There were many guards left inside the mansion so I wanted to try out my new bomb. I sacrificed a day of my lifespan and detonated it. "E-P Ghost" generated more power than a rocket launcher. But it's most dangerous power is not destructivity but the poison it spreads. Quickly poison was spread all over the first floor and traveled to second.

Poisons effects showed itself right after one of the guards stepped on a first floor. First he started to shake as if he had seizures. After that he held his neck, it was evident he had trouble breathing and his pupils dilated. Finally he started vomiting and died. After watching that I felt really weird. When I thought of poisoning I imagined person just coughing blood and dropping dead. But this person started shaking, had trouble breathing, his pupils dilated and he vomited. It was grosser than I thought. Guards after that too started to show the same symptoms. I just couldn't take it and went upstairs.

There I started my search for the Assembly members. I found them in a meeting room. I wondered how could they still be here. Didn't they know that all the guards were dead? I inspected everywhere with my En and couldn't find anything. I unsheathed my katana and beheaded them all. When I came back to first floors what I looked at was shocking. The bodies of the dead people started to melt.

After that I went to the Graveyard. There with my both hands I started to dig a grave for Damon. After I buried him. I looked at that grave and said, "Did I ever say I like you to you? I don't think so. From the moment we know each other, I never have told you or anyone that I love them. For most of my life I wanted to love you and others, but I couldn't as I was an outsider."

After saying that I looked away and started to walk away. It doesn't matter if I have ever loved them or not as they are just pages in my great book of life. One of the hundreds and thousands of pages. Now I finally understand that I don't need family and love. I just need one thing and that is my goal. I would never stop until I reach my goal.