Loving Him

MARINA'S POV

I feel around before I open my eyes. I don't want to see him leave.

I want to wake up that he's gone, that he's leaving. My thoughts hold as someone knocked on the door and immediately opened my eyes as I heard Adam's mother's voice.

"Marina, are you awake? Can I come in?" she asked and I hurried to my bed and noticed that Adam was gone. There was a hidden pain in my heart but I don't want to burst into cry.

"Just a moment," I replied and immediately got dressed

I grip the doorknob and I greeted my morning.

"I'm sorry and I've been a while," I apologized and she just waves it.

"That's all right, I know," she continued to say but just dismissed it and laughed heartedly.

"Did you have a good sleep?" she asked and I nodded my head.

She walks through the balcony and gives me a gesture to follow her and I instantly walk into her direction.

ADAM'S POV

I didn't even bother to say goodbye to her. I couldn't bear to see her eyes that could prevent my departure. It won't take me long. I just said goodbye to mom and dad, I saw sadness and joy in their eyes.

FLASHBACK

"Adam, can't you be stopped?" asked Mom as she cried.

"Mom"

"I know, I know that this is what you want. But do you still have to leave Marina for that? I mean come on son you'll get married and were not getting any younger anymore. I want to see my son marrying such a woman like her, "she said while wiping her tears away using the back of her hand.

"Lucia hun, Adam does not just run after that," father said that makes my mother frown in confusion.

"What do you mean?" she asked while giving us both a questioning look.

"Adam wants to be an actor," he directly said and my mother looks shocked covering her mouth to prevent whining.

"Actor? I mean why? I thought you just want to be a bachelor?" she whispered yelling.

"I'll talk to her son you'll be late on your flight."

"Mom I want to talk to you," I said as I look at my father and he instantly understands what I meant.

"I'll be at the kitchen," he said.

Mom and I was the only one left and I started talking to her.

"I can't seem to tell her my goodbye and I wish you would say goodbye to her for me," I said and she nodded her head understanding me.

"What about the actor thingy Adam? Please answer me now, it curious me now," she said whispering even though we can't be heard I took a deep breath before answering her I took it slowly till she understands why I want this.

"How long you'll be gone?"

"I signed a contract and it's about a year. A year only mom and I'll be home."

I can't help but stare at her picture on my phone and I smiled at her childish face that I took. I did not sleep that night, no, I can't sleep that night because I'm busy memorizing every detail of her beautiful face. I even took a picture of her while sleeping.

LUCIA'S POV

We were now sitting on the balcony while sipping our coffee and eating a slice of bread that I prepared a while ago before calling her.

I didn't know how and where I would start, so I chose to be straightforward.

"Marina dear, Adam left," I directly said and I saw her face turned blue.

"And that is not only the reason why would he left," I said and her head quickly turned to me.

"What do you mean??" she asked worriedly.

"He wants to be an actor I know I know it's kinda questionable. Me too I was shocked, I was speechless about why?"

"Actor for how long? Is that his dream?" she asked and I just nodded my head.

"About a year but he will keep in touch with us. He says goodbye to you because he cannot face you. He wants to send that he loves you so much and when he comes back he will marry you and I'm sure of that dear," I said and she smiled that doesn't reach her eyes.

I can see that she seems not comfortable now and I hold her hands.

"Don't worry, he'll be back. You're here with us, you're our family. And we can't let you go and live alone, you are better here. I'm waiting for grandchildren you know, "I laughed to change the atmosphere in the air and she smiled and I could see her blushing.

"Thank you so much Mom," she said and that melted my heart.

"No. Thank you for coming on our lives," I said and I was surprised when she stands up and embrace me that I let out a laugh and returned her gesture.

1 month later

MARINA'S POV

One month ago, it was a month of endurance that he was gone. We only had a month to call and video chat. At first, he often called us and me.

He always talks about what's going on in her career. He has been one of the top bachelors in Asia and is now a famous actor even a month ago.

His text was frequent and his calls were scarce I could not blame him for his tight schedule and he was always busy but I kept calling or texting him every day but came the day that I lost my feelings to message and call him again, I have this feeling that he is so far away.

I always understood him, but as the days and moments passed I also asked myself what I wanted, what I was dreaming about.

So I decided to leave and venture abroad, I wanted to become a popular chef in the country. And I want to set up a cake and pastry shop that I manage. I want to be alone not just because I want to find what I want but because of Adam's painful developments.

I know that's part of her job but everyone in the media has different eyes. He was caught in a hotel and was a hot news he was with his partner in his new movie.

Now he is coming home and it is good that he knows that I am leaving first or that I will never come home. I was so hurt by every news that he was the news and he was so different, that every time I felt like my heart was breaking.

They also know how I feel and somehow they always comfort me when they see me crying. And that's why I decided to go, to find my future and to be away from him.

ADAM'S POV

I parked my car in front of our house. I didn't tell them that my flight would be early. I don't know but why do I feel that I want to go back to Las Vegas soon and I don't know that I don't feel any signs of miss. I didn't feel excited to see her and I didn't miss her at all but I pushed those thoughts away as soon as I stepped my foot on the door.

I saw my mom and dad in the living room watching a movie Titanic while embracing each other. I cleared my throat to clarify that I'm here. They both turn their heads to my direction and my mom gasps at my appearance.

She jumps at her sit at placed her hands on her mouth.

"Adam!" she exclaimed and run to embrace me.

"Son you're early," my father grinned and let out a chuckle and embrace me.

"Yes, my flight was early and I didn't tell you already because I wanted to surprise you," I said and I look at the room searching her presence.

"Where's Marina?" I asked and they both exchanged looks.

"She's not here," my mother said and I frowned.

"She left," dad said adding what my mother had said.

"Why? Where?" I asked and I only saw heavy in their eyes.

"She wanted to find her future in baking, she's in Australia," my mother stated and I run to our room, wishing that they were just telling lies and hoping that she's in there waiting for me.

I grip the doorknob slowly opening it and I entered. There is no Marina insight, I even look at her closet to see if her clothes are still there and I found nothing.

I slump at the bed running my hands in my hair when my eyes landed on the paper in the table and I saw her handwritten. As I saw her handwritten, a memory flash to be a beautiful memory of her and all my feelings for her came back and I want to smack myself for not treating her nice while I'm at Las Vegas. I hated myself from cheating on her from betraying her.

Dear Adam,

I'm sorry if I can't tell you this personally.

It hurts me to get to this point and it hurts me to write you a letter, I am so happy for you that you reach your dreams and I don't doubt that you can, you always can. I am so proud of you that you became one of the most top bachelors and now a famous actor.

I am always watching you on TV and I am so proud of you that you reach that kind of dream and you know what's the sad part of it? The sad part of it was I can't tell people that hey that's my love and we will be getting married but I can't, because I saw your interview in the media's and you said you had no girlfriend or woman to came back and you are single and searching for a woman to live with and have a family. I don't even saw your ring in your hand that symbolizes our devotion. Writing this letter is so hard but I need to do this. Do you still remember the day before you left that I would just look at this ring in my hand? Well, I always look at this ring that you gave even though you're not wearing yours, I always reassuring myself that you did not just wear it because you lost it but I'm just fooling myself. I want you to give this ring to the woman that you love most and give importance and please don't hurt her the way you are hurting me now. I left the ring in a small box near the letter. I hope we'll be seeing each other in the future. I wish you the best in your career.

Loving you,

Marina

I saw her tears stain the last word in the letter that added mine. I almost did not notice that I was crying too. I want to kill myself for being so selfish and jerk on her. I'll find her. I swear I'll find her and make her come back in my life. I was a fool, I already lost her once and I'm already making it again.