Male and Female Reversal High School Pure Love

82. Preparation for school trip (4)

1.

There is a reason I always live by saying that my mind is complicated.

… ….

Because it’s really complicated.

This is especially the case these days.

No, not these days, but the last few days.

When you talk to Han Seung-gi, you fall into it and start talking excitedly, but when the conversation is over and quiet, you start to feel ashamed of yourself again.

I think I threw this word out for no reason, or it seemed like I was too excited when I said it.

It’s not some kind of mental illness. What is this doing

The flow of thoughts that even I can’t understand.

I don’t think it’s usually this far, but in the last few days, this has gotten worse.

Yes what. I’m not stupid either.

… ….

I might be a bit stupid.

Still, acknowledgment means a person who knows how to admit.

I was thinking about those complicated emotions until the weekend, and I finally came to admit one fact.

The feeling I have for Han Seung-gi is not a simple friendship.

Every time I think of someone, my heart tickles, I feel happy, and for some reason my body may feel hot.

However, it would not be a relationship that can be described as a simple best friend.

Obviously it wasn’t like this when I first met Han Seung-gi.

I acted a bit friendly to the guy who transferred at an ambiguous time, and since I sat next to him, I acted a bit more friendly.

I remember thinking of him as just a normal guy at the time.

I don’t know when these complex and subtle feelings, not at all general feelings, began to emerge.

Isn’t there a saying that you don’t know how to get your clothes wet in drizzle?

It’s hard to describe it as a certain moment.

It seems that the ordinary feelings at the beginning changed so slowly that even I did not notice.

Hmm. Long story short, anyway.

There’s no point in procrastinating anymore. As I procrastinate and procrastinate thinking about this feeling, I feel like I am no longer an idiot, but an idiot.

Today is Sunday. The day before the school trip.

I told Han Seung-gi in advance, but today I plan to go to school after sleeping at my house with him.

A little time will pass and Han Seung-gi will come.

After dinner, there will be quite a bit of time left before going to bed. We decided to find out in advance where we would stop by on our school trip.

I’m thinking of adding one more schedule to that.

Doubts in my cluttered mind.

An experiment that can confirm that suspicion.

I don’t know if I can describe it as an experiment.

Seeing that my heart is pounding just thinking about it, I wonder if it was an act with a lot of selfishness.

Anyway.

Anyway, yes.

Sung Yu-ri said to come to a conclusion before the school trip is over. Wasn’t she already too late?

I think today is the time to see the end.

2.

“Min Ah-rin, Maze Park, right?”

“Wouldn’t it be right? If you look at it as soon as you search for it.”

After dinner, we sat in front of the computer and searched for places written on the school trip itinerary.

The place you searched this time is Maze Park.

The lush green grass was a pretty impressive visual, but…….

My mind was halfway away from home, so it was hard to give a proper evaluation.

After that, I also looked for rail bikes and Seongsan Ilchulbong. There was no particular change in my mind.

Now is the time to open your mouth.

Actually, if it went according to plan, I should have said it earlier.

It was obvious that I wouldn’t be able to have a proper conversation anyway in this state of mind.

It would be right to finish early.

“Should I climb Ilchulbong by myself?”

“…….”

“Min Ah-rin?”

I opened my parched mouth.

“That’s… Han Seung-gi.”

“Why?”

“It’s been quite a while since we… Met, right?”

“To say it’s a long time… No, well, it was definitely over a month.”

“I, uh, what, uh, honestly, aren’t we pretty close… I think.”

“I don’t have anyone as close as you.”

“That’s right?!”

You should be able to say what you want to say right away, but useless words keep popping up.

Still, I got the timing right this time.

“So… Can I call you by my name now?”

“When did you not call me by name?”

“No… It just seems a little stiff when you sing it with the last name attached, so… It’s nothing else… It’s just…, Wouldn’t it be okay to sing it more comfortably… I feel… I feel like I’m getting… A little bit… I think so…”

“I also, what?”

Han Seung-gi looked at me with an expression that seemed to ask if he was taking a break from something trivial.

But that’s only for a while.

“Ari… Um…”

“…….”

Han Seung-gi couldn’t finish his words properly, and an awkward silence fell between us.

I tried to open my mouth a bit, but it wasn’t easy to let it out.

It sounds like a very strange thing.

How great it is to call someone by their last name.

We usually call each other by name, but that one small change is so great.

Even with that said, there is a world of difference between making up your mind and actually taking action.

At some point, we turned our heated faces and moved our eyes to the other side.

And then, I regained my composure.

Yes. It’s not that great.

I’m nervous, excited, and excited for nothing.

Looking at it objectively, it’s not that great.

… ….

“S, it’s Seunggi…”

I thought so.

I thought it was no big deal.

“Uh…, Min, no, that, Arin…”

To the words I spit out, and to the answers that came back.

My heart started pounding.

His face turned bright red.

The corners of his mouth fluctuated, and his arms and legs tensed.

I feel better. Got seriously better

I even thought of wanting to sway my limbs.

A voice I had just heard lingered in my head.

The three letters ‘Arina’ didn’t leave.

It’s just one name.

I used to sing that many times, and now there has been only a slight change.

At such a minor change, the feeling of having the whole world rose up.

I really liked hearing the title ‘Arin’, and when I used the title ‘Seung-giya’, my heart felt full.

It’s an unusual feeling. It is a thought that cannot arise between ordinary people, and it is a reaction that cannot come out against friends.

It seemed certain now.

No, it must have been delayed this far for something that was already clear from before.

I wonder if it’s something so great that I’ve been rejecting it that much.

At the time I rejected this emotion, I had my own valid reason, but now that I think about it, it was just a strange logic.

I think I like Han Seung-gi.

It’s not ‘like’…….

I like it.

The emotions that were ordinary when we first met have developed to this point before we know it.

I fell into the drizzle as if my clothes were getting wet.

I like winning.

It seems that you have been liking it for a long time.

3.

I don’t know how things went after that.

We tend to forget everything else when we get absorbed in a story, but today it seemed that the tendency was only triggered by Seung-gi.

Because I was busy accepting the emotions I felt for the first time.

I think it was good to be aware of those feelings, and it was also good to accept them.

But after that, new changes took place.

… ….

Because my actions became awkward in an instant as long as they were related to him.

Because we started to overreact to anything our bodies touched.

It was like that just before.

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You’re unlikely to be late for school tomorrow, but it’s time to go to bed.

Of course, I offered the bed to the guest, but Seung-gi stubbornly refused to do so.

We never backed down on each other’s opinions.

Today, it seemed that the fact that there was no blanket to sleep on the floor had a big effect.

At the time the argument continued, Seung-gi made an expression as if he had made a decision.

Just like that, he turned off the light in the room, grabbed my wrist, and lay down with me on the bed.

Of course, even if it was normal, it was clear that he would have been greatly embarrassed by this action.

The fact of lying next to Seung-gi must have always embarrassed me.

But today, the scale of embarrassment was extraordinary.

Because I was asleep and I couldn’t come to my senses.

My body stiffened, and I started to pay attention to my breathing.

I felt awkward with my actions, and I felt like my dreams didn’t belong to me.

The fact that Seunggi is lying next to me.

Lying in the same bed with someone you like.

It was something I couldn’t comfortably accept.

Seung-gi also showed a little awkward reaction, but he closed his eyes after throwing out the words to have a good dream.

And I…….

My eyes were closed, but I couldn’t sleep at all.

That’s how I continued to spend time.

I don’t know how much time has passed, but it was clear that a lot of time had passed.

I’ve been thinking about various things while feeling my awkward body.

It was too many thoughts to explain.

By the way. As I was doing that, I heard a voice next to me.

“Min…, no, Arin…Ah. Aren’t you sleeping yet?”

“Oh, yes… I can’t sleep.”

“Are you looking forward to it?”

“It’s not like that… Well…”

It’s already the third time we’ve slept together.

Even for almost a week.

Still, I could guarantee that today’s conversation was the most awkward.

We talked in awkward voices.

Maybe it’s because of my feelings for Seung-gi earlier, or because of Seung-gi’s nickname ‘Arin’.

The tone of each other’s words was awkward.

That’s when the conversation started to become less and less.

I brought out the question I had been thinking about by myself earlier.

It was simply an effect of curiosity.

The size of that curiosity was too great.

“Seung-gi.”

“Why?”

“You… Do you have a crush on someone…?”

Of course. I didn’t ask this question to make a confession out of the blue.

I am also a person who knows order, and …… To be honest, I hadn’t even thought about a confession yet.

“Or just want some interest… Something like that…”

Just. How to say

I think I was curious about what Han Seung-gi would think of me.

It was such an ambiguous question, but I didn’t have the courage anymore.

This was the best.