One Love Betrayal, Another Bliss..

Five months ago, my heart was broken into peices by him that cheated on me with my cousin. After the incident, I isolated myself from everyone, including my family and closed friends. I fell into a mild depression that now gives me anxiety.. the anxiety that has kept me away from falling in love and getting my heart trampled on again.

After Marcus broke my heart, I didn't know what to do with my life. I just stayed at the library for about two weeks, killing myself in my own sadness. I didn't go home after college and went straight to the City library. I didn't want to go bumping into Lillian at home and trying my best to stay away from Marcus too. I heard from Aunt Geneva, he came over to house almost everyday for the whole weeks. I still remember the day after he cheated on me, although he was sorry and apologizes that he's drunk thinking Lillian was me, I still can't get over myself to forgive him.

Luckily after that depressing weeks, I started focusing on finding a new college and getting out of home. But I get a few anxiety attacks here and there. The second time I closed my eyes, memories of Marcus and Lillian in bed... My mind got lost in the abyss of the painful memories till this day, memories that still haunt me to the core. A shiver ran down my spine as I gathered my knees and scooped myself in my own cocoon, trying to soothe my aching mind.

My whole body frozed and I turned toward the window, the night sky was clear with stars blinking everywhere. I held my gaze up in the sky for a few seconds recalling them together in Lilian's bed. As much as I hate tears, I couldn't stay away from it, like the tears were bound to to be here. We, both were actually engaged for 2yrs to be married in a year time. I quickly wipe away my eyes with the palm of my hands. Why does the one I love, eventually betrayed me? Years of relationship just gone in a blink of an eye.

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Recalling, after their first fight few years back, she did tried to go and spend some time alone. She had been too angry and too hasty to try and understand Marcus. A little mistakes... That was ok, though, because eventually we had come to agreed upon certain things that needed to happen in their relationship. He understood that she had days she needed to vent, to let out. Likewise, she understood that he needed to have his space sometimes. By far one of the best things they had done was have "safewords" for arguments.

It was pretty simple actually. When they started arguing, if either started to get to a true breaking point, they could use our safeword and they would stop fighting and explain what they were feeling calmly without interrupting each other. He, being the Vice-President and 2nd heirs, had known where each other's limits were.. was a great thing for their relationship. It had helped them to realized where the areas that shouldn't be crossed, even as a joke.

For her, she came to realize that mistakes were an integral part of relationsh.i.p.s. A real relationship wasn't born out of a couple that didn't make mistakes, it was born out of a couple that was willing to work through those mistakes. And for every mistakes, they promised to work through them together. But now, that one mistake cannot be dealt with. Just one betrayal.. had caused her severely heart broken.

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She and Marcus had already parted and it's had been five months now, she shrugged slightly. It still bothered her a little that they hadn't kissed goodbye but it was stupid to be upset over something so trivial as that, and she tried to put it at the back of her mind. After all, today was going to be a much bigger day than most and she had far more important things to concern herself with.. her upcoming interview tomorrow.

Come the day for interview.....

Once the elevator doors opened on the 28th floor, I quickly walked to the clerk's desk and waited until she got off the phone so I could tell her about my interview. "How may I help you?" After the clerk was done, pretty blonde with brown eyes asked. "Hi. I'm Ruby Tang, I was here for the interview... at 10.00am." I trailed off giving her a sheepish smile.

With that she picked up the phone again and started another call while I took the time to admire my surrounding. The entry had a red carpet and a few potted plants.. real ones. The hallway was huge with grey to white walls and several doors on either side of the hallway. Several grey couches lined the walls right next to the doors and in one corner there were two women sitting in front of a closed door, probably waiting to be interviewed.