Re: Death - Reincarnated Dead Into Another World

I've gotten a physical body.

A healthy human body with two hands and two feet.

Well, more exactly, an Eifil-Realne's body. It just closely resembles a human's in retrospect.

The slight difference are my slightly pointy ears, but not long enough to be of the elves from my memories. Same with humans' but the top edge is a little bit pointy. Another are the white horns protruding from my forehead, just about an inch above my eyebrows. And lastly, a slightly thicker tail than Fleur's with the same shape for the tip, a flat diamond shaped tip.

My body itself is well toned, but is still slender. Slimmer than what I had before, to be honest. I can see how this race specialize in Strength and Speed.

Ciel: "F-Finally… A body…"

This is awesome. Seriously, it is.

It's not that I hate having a ghost for a body. Actually, it's sort of comforting in its own way when I first arrived in this world. But looking back, it was honestly better to have a suitable body that I'm used to having.

It was just longer than a month but I already feel so nostalgic about having a body…

Mufufu…

Ciel: "Up we go. … Phew."

I was sitting when I found myself evolved so I stood up to test things out.

I can swing my arms perfectly fine. I can jump fairly easy.

Wait, no. I feel as light as a feather, rather. It's like, if I try to jump at full force I may get stuck at the ceiling like a knife.

There's no problem with my head either. The only noticeable part is this slight weight I feel over my head.

Yeah. My hair appears to be long, reaching down to my back.

I've finished confirming the function of my body and turned my head towards Fleur and Purin.

Ahh… It feels so good to turn my head around. Even such trivial things makes me happy is just a proof how I missed having this body.

Fleur: "*gulp* … Uhm…"

Hmhm. It looks like Fleur is blushing once again. But this time…

Ciel: "Ahaha… Ms. Fleur? My eyes are up here."

Fleur: "Eh?! I-I was not looking!!"

She was looking at my junior, just as I thought.

Ciel: "Kyah! Fleur, you perv!"

I playfully covered my c.h.e.s.t and my son. Fleur followed by covering her eyes again.

Ahaha~ Well, I guess she's still a normal girl in that regards. She still has her curiosity, of course.

But then again…

Right…

I finally have my junior…! It's been a while my son… *sniffle* I never thought I'd meet you again in this world.

… Things will become busy tonight.

Purin: "Just make haste and don a cloth or whatever, purin."

Ciel: "But I don't have any. Hmm…"

I folded my hands and ponder to think.

Fleur: "Hawawawa…"

It feels so airy so I really need to find something to wear. Not to mention, Fleur can't help but look. But until now, the clothes are only for Fleur and nothing else. From the look of things, I'm visibly taller than Fleur so using her clothes are not an option. Well, to begin with, using a girl's clothes? Nope. That's a huge nope.

Fleur: "U-Uhm… Before that, Ciel…?"

Ciel: "Yeah?"

Fleur fidgets around her index fingers while hanging her head down. Her face is still blushed even up to her ears. She shoots short glances every now and then, but instantly withdraw them because of embarrassment. Yet, not once has she looked at my face. She's really that fixated on my body.

Ahaha… I really need to have clothes.

Fleur: "I-I know you have… Uhm… Your 'thing' there, but…"

Saying the word 'thing' made her blush even more. Now her body is almost red from the embarrassment. Mufufu. She's so cute.

Ciel: "Yeah. It feels so comforting knowing that I once again got one."

Fleur: "~~~! … Y-Yes! So… Uhm. You are a man, right?"

Huh? What's with that question? Of course, I am. I mean, what else could I be? I have my junior right here.

Ciel: "Of course, I am. Why do you ask?"

Fleur: "I-I see. I was not mistaken. It is just… You completely appear to be a woman. Your physique, to be precise."

I placed my hands over my face and body to check.

It's soft.

I remember my face before, since I often wash my face every morning and in the evening. It became a routine then because of how dust easily piles up in our town. It irritates my face.

So, touching my face right now, I know there's something different. Or rather, everything is different.

Fleur also said something about my body, but… I don't have b.o.o.b.s, obviously. I have my junior as well. But…

I see. So this is what she meant by appearing to have a woman's body. Perhaps all she knew about a man being a man physically is by having rugged and rough physique. She's not that familiar with a lot of commons sense, I see.

Well, her father was a warrior that time so he must have had a well-built body.

But the thing is, my hip is a bit wider and my waist is slimmer than a guy's. Well, my navel is still lower than a female, if I remember correctly. Still, there's not even a trace of having a broad shoulder or whatsoever. Not to mention, my now long hair…

Oh my goodness… This is… that? Right?

I've become a…

A-Anyways, I really need to cover myself with something.

Right, I'll try using Silk Thread and use Thread Control to make some clothes.

Hm. Where will I produce it, I wonder? I got this skill from a worm like monster that spits its threads out of its mouth, so should I expect it from my mouth as well?

I activated Silk Thread and heard the cl.i.c.k.i.n.g sound of the activation. To my surprise, it appears to eject from my index fingers.

Ciel: "Ohhh! Now let's try making clothes."

Purin: "Thou can even do that…? Thou really art shrouded in mystery…"

I return those exact same words to you, you mind reading, all-knowing slime.

Ignoring Purin's statement, I focused on making a simple robe. Much to my surprise, making it is quite easier that I thought. Even though I know nothing about sewing or the sort, I just did it while imagining the finished product. Perhaps Thread Control is in… 'control' here. Pfft.

That one's funny, right?

Right?

… Ahem.

Of course, I'm not only using Thread Control here, I'm also using Psychokinesis, which has now become Psyche. The silk's color is white so it ended up being pure white. Well, beggars can't be choosers, as they say.

I tried the robe on and it perfectly fit my newly acquired body. Yeah, this is nice. It's simple enough to be called a bathrobe. I'll just make a new one later. For now, this will do.

Now, going back to my appearance.

Purin: "Here, a mirror, purin."

Ciel: "Oh, where did you get this?"

Using her liquid body, she reached an oblong shaped mirror with intricate designs on its edge.

Purin: "From the castle empire, back in the Demon Continent, purin. Just make haste and look at yourself, purin."

Well, I can just use Magic Perception to look at myself, but… I think it won't be wise to turn her good will down, in this case.

I did as suggested to and looked at my own reflection.

… Ohhh…

… Color me surprised.

Shocked, to be more exact. I really look like a woman in her twenties. Just around the same age as when I was a human, albeit a bit older. I was 20 years old back in my former world so it's not that far though.

At any rate… Hm?

Wait sec.

I take my eyes off my reflection and looked at Fleur.

Fleur: "…"

Unexpectedly, I found her wearing a baffled expression. Much like she saw something unbelievable. She opens her mouth but closes it the next instant, as if she wants to say something.

Anyways, not that. There's a point to notice, that's what.

Ciel: "Purin. Don't you think I quite look a lot like Fleur?"

Purin: "… Purin hates to admit it, however, yes. Thou definitely appears to be similar to Milady in that form, purin."

Just as I thought. I do look a lot like Fleur. If you imagine Fleur being a bit older than what she looks like right now, that's how I look.

Listening to our conversation, Fleur joined our conversation.

Fleur: "Th-That is… C-Ciel is…"

She's having a hard time choosing her words, as her eyes diverts all around the place.

Purin: "Milady."

Fleur: "… I know."

Fleur is now wearing a sour expression while looking at me. As if she wants to say something but is holding it back. Placing her hand on her c.h.e.s.t, she smiled wryly.

Fleur: "You look almost exactly like… my mother. Ahaha… Even the voice… sounds almost the same. Y-You look a bit younger, however."

Certainly, my voice sounds different from when I was a human. And now that she mentions it, it does sounds higher than a man's.

On the other hand…

She's trying to make it sound like it's something trivial, but… It's clear on her face that she's forcing herself to do so.

Ciel: "… I see."

That explains her reaction and current reaction.

I know there's nothing to feel guilty about, but a word of apology is starting to form in my throat. But I swallowed them before I got the chance to say them. I know that's not what Fleur wants to hear was well.

Fleur: "…"

I look at her straight in the eyes.

She stares back at me with swirling emotions. I can actually feel them through the Link. But it looks like she's holding something back. She wants to say something, but she can't. Or more likes, she can't find the way to do so.

She opens her mouth, just to close them again.

Noticing the current state of her master, Purin pushed her back and Fleur was forced to take a step towards me.

I know where this is going. If that's what can make Fleur happy, then I'm more than happy to oblige.

Ciel: "Do you want to say something, Fleur?"

I'm not her mother, of course. I can't be her mother.

I'm a guy. Even with that said, I still also can't be her father.

But… from the short amount of time I spent with her, talking, sharing our own stories, fighting alongside each other, spending the days travelling with her and Purin, I've come to learn to treasure her.

That much is true.

That's why, if I can make her happy, have her at ease just by being a shadow of her mother, and let her vent out her own feelings, then I'm more than happy to do that for her.

Fleur: "… A-Ah…"

Her mouth still opening and closing, she still can't bring out the words she wanted to say. I waited for her patiently.

And smiled.

Ciel: "Hm?"

Fleur: "I-I am sorry, Ciel… J-Just this time… Y-You can forget about… e-everything later…"

Ciel: "Mhm."

She gingerly walked towards me with tears forming at the corner of her eyes.

Fleur: "… I am sorry… M-Mama… I'm so… Uu… sorry…"

Just as I thought.

Ciel: "…"

I won't answer. Of course. I'm not her mother. I know she knows that enough as well.

But letting her say the things she bottled up until now…

Fleur: "I d-did not mean to do it… *sniffle* Mama… I did not want to do such things…! *sob* I am so sorry…!"

Unable to contain her emotions, she jumped towards me and wrapped her arms around my waist, burying her face on my c.h.e.s.t. I was almost pushed back by the force, but I stood still to receive all her emotions.

Her pent up tears.

I felt her grip tighter than I expected but I let her do as she pleases. I know I shouldn't do anything here, but… I return her embrace.

This, at least, will do.

Fleur: "*sob* I am sorry, Mama! *hic* Uu… I am sorry I hurt you… *hic* and Papa…! *sniffle* Uu… Ma- *hic* Waaaahh…!!"

Even though she acts m.a.t.u.r.e, she really is still a child inside. That has to be expected, I know.

I rubbed her back as she let everything out.

Like a dam bursting out from all the pent up emotions she carried all these years, she let them out with a mellow cry. The feelings of regret, sorry, loneliness, longing, her love for her mother and father, everything that she thought she had already buried and forgotten.

If I can receive all of those…

Fleur: "Waaaaahhhh…! *sob* Mamaaaaaa…!!"

She raised her head to look at my face. Bitter tears once again fell down her already drenched cheeks; her brows wrinkle into the middle. She let my waist go from her arms' tight hug and went to wrap them around my neck for a closer embrace.

That's when I realize.

The feelings she was carrying was not something trivial as losing someone. It's not something that she can just bottle up and forget.

She lost her parents.

She lost her everything.

She lost her own self.

And all those are done by her own hands. She wasn't even aware that she did it. All she knew that day was she's waiting for her dear mother to come back, waiting eagerly for her warmth. But the next thing she knew…

Fleur: "Maaamaaaa…!! *sob*"

Just like a snap of a finger, she lost everything she held dear.

Her blissful days was instantly robbed off of her.

And that, is by her own hands.

Now she's finally seeing her long lost mother. The face she thought she would never see anymore. The warmth she thought she would never feel until she die. The mother she thought she had lost forever. Right now, in front of her.

It's understandable that she would be like this.

Fleur: "I'm sorry…!! *hic* I'm so… sorry…!! *sob* I… I truly love you…!! *sob* Waaaaaahhh!!"

If I'm in her position, I doubt I can do the same as carry the burden.

She's too strong. Too strong for her own good.

That alone is certainly true.

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Chapter End