Silent Confession

Silent Confession – Ch.37 – “You are here, where can I go.”

PUBLISHED ON 31 July 2023

“…What did I lie about.”

Zhou MuHui stripped him from the blanket, carefully holding him on his lap.

“Then we won’t be going anymore.”

He brushed Xin Yi’s hair which got wet from the tears behind his ears, and coaxed him hoarsely, “Let’s refund the ticket later, I’ll stay with you at home, okay?”

Zhou MuHui didn’t know why he was crying, but Xin Yi didn’t allow him to leave, so he won’t leave. 

Zhou MuHui was willing to make a compromise, as long as he was happy. 

Xin Yi half shed tears suddenly stopped, and raised his head to look at him blankly.

“… You are not leaving anymore?” 

Zhou MuHui wiped his face, and couldn’t help but let out a sigh in his heart. 

“Not leaving. “

He was a little impatient today, and he couldn’t help being restless, that’s why he couldn’t wait to return the money to Xin Yi the second the curtain fell.

It’s just that he was waiting for this day for too long already, and he didn’t know if, in the process, he said something wrong, or did something wrong that made the little kid this sad. 

But Zhou MuHui didn’t want him to cry. 

  He carried Xin Yi up, supporting his butt like a child, letting him hug his neck.

“…Where are we going?”

Xin Yi was a bit confused by him, not understanding why the two suddenly became like this.

Zhou Mu kissed his eyes still wet with tears, and coaxed him in a low voice, “Let’s take care of your hands first, alright?”

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 Xin Yi had no way of saying no, because Zhou MuHui put him on the sofa, he saw the man getting the ointment with his back facing him, and then half kneeling in front of him, The other party’s sharp brows and eyes were half-drooped, and from Xin Yi’s perspective, it almost seemed gentle.

“……”

He was almost unable to speak, Xin Yi couldn’t understand, wasn’t he crying just then, and was afraid Zhou MuHui would leave, would leave Xin Yi, but how come in a blink of an eye, the two of them got close quietly again.

As if nothing happened.

“There is no more gauze at home, I’m going to buy some, stay at home obediently by yourself. ”

After a while, Zhou MuHui held his wrist, and raised his head to look at him. 

“…It doesn’t hurt.”

Xin Yi instinctively shook his head, not letting him go. 

He looked at Zhou Muhui with wet eyes, still full of fear and ignorance, Zhou MuHui’s heart softened, as if he was about to be held captive by Xin Yi saying he was not hurting.

“… No, be obedient.”

Zhou MuuHui got up, carefully placed his hand, then put the cat he was calling for half a day on his other side, saying, “I’ll be right back.”

His tone was normal, not seeming to really want to leave Xin Yi at all, Xin Yi looked at him for a long moment, inexplicably compromised.

“Oh…”

He sniffed, saying in a small voice, and nodded. 

He suddenly didn’t quite dare to look at Zhou MuHui, he couldn’t help but avoid the other person’s eyes, lowered his head, and used his uninjured hand to touch his MaoMao.

MaoMao did not understand what happened between them, only obediently lying beside Xin Yi, allowing Xin Yi to rub him casually.

Zhou MuHui left very quickly, he heard footsteps approaching the door and heard the door being opened with a click, Xin Yi told himself not to worry, not to be afraid, but he couldn’t restrain himself from raising his head

The man’s back was tall and straight, his broad palm was firmly pressed on the handle, and then released quietly in the next second, Xin Yi’s heart trembled, and he straightened up at a loss, but because he was able to say anything, he saw Zhou MuHui turn around abruptly, and walked back quickly.

“…Wu.” 

Zhou MuHui was very fierce, biting his lips to force him to open his mouth, his lips and tongue were tangled together with Xin Yi, with an unusual fierceness, robbing him of his breath inch by inch.

The skin-to-skin feeling made him dizzy, and the sticky breath was forced to be entangled together, Xin Yi raised his head in a daze, and accepted Zhou MuHui’s eager and fierce kiss, his wrists were pressed on the top of his head by the other party, the rough palm caressed Xin Yi’s soft fingertips, Xin Yi wanted to speak, but it turned into muffled noises the moment he opened his mouth, it was fiercely and hastily swallowed by Zhou MuHui.

MaoMao was sandwiched between the two of them, as helpless as Xin Yi, meowing while looking around.

But nobody cared. 

The half-open door brought a gust of wind, Xin Yi gradually became addicted, the half-raised slender fingers gradually softened, and even his eyes became softer, just like his MaoMao just now, lying in his arms obediently, letting Zhou MuHui bully him.

“ … Why were you crying. ”

Zhou MuHui backed away slightly, breathing heavily on his lips, and asked in a hoarse voice.

He returned in a hurry, and didn’t even have time to change his shoes, only half-kneeling in front of Xin Yi, looking down at him.

Xin Yi’s eyes were moist, and blinked in confusion.

He didn’t know what to say, he was confused by Zhou MuHui’s series of operations,  he didn’t understand why the person who said he was leaving is not leaving anymore, and even coaxing him gently like this, and even kissing him now. 

“Xiao Yi.”

He was silent the whole time, Zhou MuHui lowered his head first.

His fingertips stroked the soft skin of his palm, as if he was a little nervous, and it took him a long time to open his mouth.

“I…I am being serious.”

This is the first time he was so at a loss, even Xin Yi could easily see it, but Xin Yi didn’t understand.

“Ah?”

He used his eyes to ask him.

“……”

Zhou MuHui covered his eyes, and let out a cough.

“What I said before…I wasn’t lying to you.”

Zhou MuHui got up to leave, not giving him the time to react.

The cat was finally let go, squawking on Xin Yi’s lap, Xin Yi watched the door not far away being slammed shut, and didn’t return to his senses for a long while.

“MaoMao…”

Xin Yi lowered his head, asking in a whisper, “What did he mean?”

Zhou MuHui just now…

Why did it seem like he was running away?

SPACE

Zhou MuHui returned very quickly, Xin Yi didn’t even wake up from the confusion just now, he saw Zhou MuHui lower his head, after helping him sort it out he then carried him back to the bedroom, when the quilt covered him, Xin Yi pulled his clothes first, and leaned over without making a sound.

He was extremely obedient, burying his head in Zhou MuHui’s embrace, Zhou MuHui turned off the light, patting his back and hugging him, asking him if it still hurt. 

The scratch on the back of Xin Yi’s hand was a little deep, Zhou MuHui sorted it out for him first, and tomorrow he still needed to take him to the hospital.

“Zhou MuHui.”

Xin Yi shook his head, and called him in a whisper.

He glanced at the ground before going to bed just now, and that broken bank card had already been thrown into the trash can, but Zhou MuHui didn’t mention it anymore.

He was a little overwhelmed and confused, this confusion started when Zhou MuHui hugged him just now, Xin Yi didn’t get it, his courage was frightened back by the previous chaos, and he carefully probed it out, not daring to take the risk to ask him directly. 

Zhou MuHui hummed, caressing his back at an irregular pace, soothing him to sleep. 

“You went to B city… to do what?”

Xin Yi asked.

“……”

The hand that Zhou MuHui used to pat his back suddenly paused, he stayed silent for a long moment, and his reaction time was longer than what Xin Yi expected, Xin 

Yi pursed his lips tightly and raised his head carefully, peeking at him from the corner of his eyes.

“…Nothing.”

Zhou MuHui was a little unnatural, evading Xin Yi’s line of sight.

“Went for a business trip.”

“…But you are about to resign!”

Xin Yi was a bit anxious, not even hiding it anymore, looking up at him impatiently.

“……”

This time, it was Zhou MuHui’s turn to be stunned, he lowered his head to look at the little kid in his arms, asking, “How do you know?”

He was prepared to resign, but he didn’t plan to tell Xin Yi now about this matter.

Xin Yi bit his tongue, then realized what he just asked, but there was no remedy for regrets in this world, he couldn’t swallow the words he finished speaking, and could only look at him nervously, saying in a whisper, “I knew it.”

He was being difficult with him, later, he didn’t even look at Zhou MuHui, struggled out of Zhou MuHui’s embrace, lowered his head, and stayed afar. 

Zhou MuHui was also a little slow, only then did he notice half a beat later that he was unhappy, the man furrowed his brows, watching him rolling further and further away, the long arms reaching out and catching him.

“Were you angry because of that?”

Zhou MuHui asked.

As a result, these last days there was something wrong with him that couldn’t be explained, that is why tonight he became angry when he heard about him leaving.

Because he didn’t tell him about the fact that he was going to resign?

“……”

Xin Yi was hesitating and couldn’t say it, he was unhappy, but it was because of many things, but it was partly one of the reasons.

Thus he hesitated for a moment, and nodded.

But Zhou MuHui let out a sigh of relief.

“Qi Fang said that?”

Zhou MuHui hugged him once again, seeing him humming slowly, he touched his red and swollen eyes again, and scolded him in a low voice.

“So stupid.”

Xin Yi widened his eyes ignorantly, not understanding why he suddenly scolded him.

“Hearing it from him, why didn’t you come to ask me?”

Xin Yi naturally didn’t say upfront that he was afraid, he gripped Zhou MuHui’s clothes tightly, holding his breath.

“Then is it too late now…”

Zhou MuHui looked at him, their family’s little kid raised his face full of anxiety, his heart quivered, being stared at by him like this suddenly made him feel sour for an unknown reason.

Xin Yi was too obedient, before he would still know how to make a fuss, but after that he became more and more calm, just like a cat, always staying by Zhou MuHui’s side silently, and he also became less talkative.

It is probably because he didn’t accompany him much.

Zhou MuHui thought.

If it was like before, both of them staying together every day, maybe he would smile often, and would often show his temper to Zhou MuHui, just like when he was younger, hugging Zhou MuHui’s neck and chitty chatting nonstop, and wouldn’t be quiet like that now.

“It is not too late.”

Zhou MuHui said, “It is never too late.”

He already considered it when he noticed Xin Yi‘s abnormality, maybe if he changed to a less busy job, maybe if he accompanied him more, his little kid would be happier, and would smile a bit more.

“I still need to wait for two more months, it hasn’t been settled yet so I didn’t tell you, afraid that you would worry.”

“Thought that I was going to B city?”

Xin Yi nodded cautiously.

“……”

Zhou MuHui couldn’t help but frown, he didn’t know that he would think that far.

“You are here, where can I go.” 

Zhou MuHui pinched the back of his neck, coaxing him, “Don’t be angry anymore ok?”

Xin Yi watched him for a long moment, then did he nodded hastily, he was hugged and rolled on top of Zhou MuHui’s, his fingers twisted the man’s clothes helplessly, and after a while, his eyes got wet again.

“…Crybaby.”

Zhou MuHui sighed, his fingertips holding the corners of his eyes that were gradually turning red, and said in a low voice, “Why do you love to cry so much.”

“You’re not, you’re not lying to me right!”

Xin Yi ignored him, grabbing his fingers asking in a hoarse voice.

“No.”

Zhou MuHui replied very quickly, then furrowed his eyebrows, “Why would I lie to you?”

Today Xin Yi said many times Zhou MuHui lied to him, Zhou MuHui thought for a long time, he still didn’t get when did he ever lied to the little kid, all of this can only be attributed to Qi Fang’s nonsense, which made their family’s fool think wildly.

Xin Yi cried and laughed at the same time, all his tears fell on Zhou MuHui’s body, then helped him wipe it off in a hurry, then the little kid got up from his body, opened his arms asking him for a hug.

Zhou Muhui got up and hugged him in a good temper, as if coaxing a child, patting his back, kissing his ear.

“I was scared to death…”

Xin Yi leaned on his shoulder, choked up, and said.

“Afraid of what.”

Zhou MuHui pinched his ear lobe, and scolded him in a low voice, “Became more and more stupid.” 

Xin Yi smiled stupidly, he couldn’t say anything to refute it, because he felt that he was becoming more and more cowardly, liking is really a bad thing that irritates people, it made him so cowardly, and so scared. 

“Is it okay if you don’t go tomorrow?”

Xin Yi, as if remembering something, looked up quickly.

“……”

Zhou MuHui coughed and pressed his upturned face down.

“It’s fine.”

Zhou MuHui said, “… It is not a big deal.”

His tone was secretly tense, but Xin Yi didn’t notice it.