The Reason I Keep Avoiding My Childhood Friend

Still, it was good that the little child’s interest continued. I hope she hits me more in the future.

When I realized that the little child’s interest was still in me, the anger that seemed like it was about to burst subsided a little. So I waited without begging for more affection. Because I am also an adult.

Waiting was so hard, but I persevered. Then, when I couldn’t stand it, I got angry, and then the little child slapped me on the cheek.

Does she like me being angry? She made the expression of affection that way. There was a time when I was angry on purpose because I wanted attention. It’s nice to receive expressions of affection, but it hurts when I get hit. Fortunately, as time went by, the little child hit me weakly, so I was able to live with it.

After a year of my relationship with that kid, I grew up quite a bit,

“So, let’s stop the regular tea time now.”

The little child said such nonsense. I was angry, but I asked calmly, and I was moved by the answer that she would not meet me just to study. I tried hard to resist asking if studying was more important than me.

“That’s why you have to study harder. There’s a lot you don’t know, either. So learn it well and I will give you good advice later.”

But after hearing the story, it was actually for my sake. She wants to become a civil servant for my sake and get a position to give me advice. The little child thought of me like this even though she seemed blunt. Look, the most important thing to the little child was me.

“Okay, okay. I can’t help it if you want to study.”

“Thank you for understanding.”

“But you have to come when I call? Understand?”

“Yes. Okay.”

I made up my mind and decided to be considerate of the little child. However, after making the promise, I kept feeling sad. I wanted to give the little child what he wanted, but I hated not being able to see her.

I keep wanting to see her. No matter how it was for my future self, I prefer being together now.

The reason the little child still likes me was because I never forgot to keep showing my face. Otherwise, no matter how smart she was, her feelings for me may be quickly forgotten.

The little child would quickly show interest in new people. Didn’t she do the same to Sir Henry? What if she fell in love with someone else while she was studying and didn’t see me? That should never happen!

Come to think of it, the little child looked at her teacher with twinkling eyes. The thought of it made me annoyed. Then I was afraid that she would forget me altogether. What to do?

Why didn’t I remember this fact when the little child said it then? If I had known then, I would have said no. But if I say no, the little child will be very angry, right? If I keep telling her that we should have tea time together, she will definitely get upset and not talk for a while.

I was worried because the little child was a strong kid who would do whatever she wanted. I grabbed my head and thought about it, but there was no solution.

“Is it because of Lady Aide?”

“What?”

Sir Henry rarely spoke privately. After the little child’s confession incident, my escort knight changed to Sir Henry instead of Ren, who had been in charge since I was very young.

I didn’t like Sir Henry from the first time he came. Unlike Ren, he didn’t listen to everything, and since he’s a newcomer, his attitude toward me was different from other people’s. Crucially, he pretended to be close to the little child for no reason. Besides, the little child smiled softly in front of Sir Henry, which made me annoyed.

That’s why I didn’t like Sir Henry. I was holding back because Father said I had to have an escort knight, but I had no intention of getting close to him. In the past, I would have asked him to be replaced with another escort knight, but now it is not easy. Father’s aide refused, saying it must be for good reason.

Even the little child was sensitive to my behavior towards others, so I couldn’t do anything recklessly. So, if not now, I was determined to see the opportunity and kick out Sir Henry. It made me feel bad when someone I didn’t like talked to me. I was worrying about something so much, so I didn’t like being interrupted.

So I gave Sir Henry a grimace.

“Is it because of Lade Aide that you are so worried?”

“Why does it matter!”

The fact that the little child’s name came out of Sir Henry’s mouth made me even more annoyed. I don’t know why this guy keeps pretending to be friendly with the little child. This won’t do. I’ll have to make this clear at this point.