The Tyrant Gentle Husband

I was embarrassed because Lisa saw me with Luke doing something indecent for children. It was his fault. I glared at Luke, but Luke was too pitiful, and I couldn't bear to scold him. Luke looked at me with puppy eyes melting my soft heart. I am not a hard-heated person. How come I have the heart to scold him longer. His cheeks were still wet from his tears. I hid my face in his firm c.h.e.s.t. 

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I didn't know what happened to his little wife, but she became quiet for a moment after Lisa caught us. She kept snuggling her head on my c.h.e.s.t like a little kitten. She was so cute, and I couldn't control myself from stealing a kiss from her soft lips, but I had to control the beast in my body because it was not the right time to do something like that.

I was so nervous at that time. I didn't have time to prepare for everything, and something liked this happened in front of me. I never thought that Selly would approach Elena's office. I always knew that Elena is Selly's only best friend, but I never imagined that they were this close to each other.

Selly knew Elena for a long time, but I never knew the detail about their friendship. I only knew that Selly liked Elena so much, even she defended Elena so much. I didn't expect anything that Selly would be in Elena's office this afternoon. My relationship and Elena had never been this good and intimate before. It was the reason why I didn't know much about their relationship.

When I saw Selly in Elena's office, my heart was beating so hard, and I suddenly remembered that Shen tried to tell me about Selly's arrival. After our relationship was not as good as before, Shen always told me where is Selly's location, because Selly got angry at me every time she came back from somewhere. Selly hated Miona the most so that she also hated me as someone who fell in love with such a girl like Miona in Selly's opinion.

So I didn't have much preparation before meeting Selly after along time we didn't see each other. After I realized that I fell in love with Miona, I was worried about Selly, what should I do to explain everything to her. Maybe in the past, I was too blockheaded and couldn't hear any complaints even though I didn't know if I was right or wrong at that time.

What I was afraid the most was Selly's anger in front of Elena, and I knew that everything Selly's said was right. But I didn't want my relationship with Elena to become awkward and stern after I tried bit by bit to fix our relationship. Selly was not wrong at all, she tried out everything to remind me before, but I never listened to her advice at all and walked away without hearing her at all. I knew it was my fault, but I was not ready to handle all of this at once because after all, I am still a human, I was afraid to lose Elena because of our conflict.

Selly did all of this to protect Elena's feelings, and I understood that, but as a human, I was greedy too, I didn't want to lose Elena. These are the feelings that I never felt before. My feelings for Miona was not this strong at all. Because I never thought about what I would do I if I lost Miona. But Elena is different from Miona in my heart.

When I was with Miona, I didn't have the feeling that I felt with Elena. I didn't care where Miona went every day. I didn't mind, she fell in love with that man, and I didn't object to her chasing the man she loved. Everything she did, I didn't care that much. I didn't miss her at all if we didn't have any contact for a long time. I didn't even think about her. 

But Elena was not the same, because I always wondered what did she think about me. I thought about her every day, did she do the same thing as me? After I knew Elena more, that was the time I realize that this little thing called love. Before, I didn't care what was Miona think about me, but with Elena, I cared about her mind for me. I was afraid, nervous, and scared every time because I felt insecure in our relationship. 

I knew what I did to her before was inhuman and a sc.u.mbag, and I didn't have the right to have her love, feelings, and affection, but I couldn't imagine she left me alone and fell in love with another guy. I could feel how broken my heart if it happened, I didn't want this to happen, Elena completely stole my love, my soul and my body so at the moment she left me, I would live my life as a ghost, I did have a body, but there was no soul in it anymore.

So Miona's position in my heart was not the same as Elena. Elena occupies all of the places in my heart when Miona never stepped on it. Even before I saw her for the first time, she already achieved stealing my heart, and I wouldn't let her left me. I would do everything so that she couldn't abandon. I didn't care about my image at all. If I could make Elena become mine, I didn't care at all. What is the meaning of an image, if you had to lose your precious person in your life. I lived in this world is for Elena, so everything else is not significant anymore.

I knew these feelings were powerful than I fell in love with Miona. My heart for Elena couldn't compare with my feelings for Miona. It was nothing in comparison because I could die without Elena. When I was in a coma, I felt lonely when Elena was not beside me. Sometimes I missed how she touched my body freely because when I was sober, she didn't dare to do that anymore. When I was in a coma, she was brave touching, my body with a chuckle, and I could imagine her expression at that time, I like her smile the most because it was the most beautiful thing in the world.

After I woke up from a coma, she never touched me again, and I knew she loves me more than my love for her, but I couldn't control my anger when I thought that she would leave me someday. No, I would never let her go. I always felt unhappy when she was not beside me. My heart was empty when she was not with me. I missed her even though we only separated for five minutes. I was worried about her every time she was in the place I didn't see. My feeling kept growing each time we spend time together. Without her, I couldn't imagine what I would become.

She is the most precious person for me. I kept wondering how much she loved me, even though I already knew, but I kept feeling insecure, because of my bad attitude towards her in the past, I was so scared that someday she would leave me alone.

"I was scared," I said in a low voice, I kept hugging her tiny body in my arms without care about my injury at all. Elena seemed that she didn't hear what I said, so I repeated my words: "I was scared that you will leave me alone," I didn't know that I was a crybaby if it concerned Elena. I didn't care if Elena mocked me for being a crybaby because I upset, insecure, scared, afraid, and everything that has a relationship with sadness.

"What are you talking about right now?" She pushed me as hard as she could, but I didn't budge at all.

"I knew that I was wrong, I hurt you in the past, I didn't know what should I do to make you forgive me, because I was scared to lose you, living without you was the same as death," I spoke with difficulty. After all, I was crying too, and my voice was husky and hard to listen.

"Who said that I want to leave you? Because I do want to leave you because I was tired of our relationship, you always hurt me, and this feeling was tiring, it tortured me the most, maybe you didn't know what it felt when you turned your cold shoulder at me.

What did you know about my feelings? You want me to be with you, but then what? Do you want to keep meeting with Miona behind my back? Do you want to keep loving her? Do you know how tiring it was for me to see all of this with my eyes? I also knew how angry you were when you quarreled with Selly about me. 

I am not blind, and I knew that you were disgusted at me, you looked at me with cold eyes. But now, you asked me to be with you, someone like you who killed my feelings like killing an ant? Don't dream about it because I would never let your wish come true," Elena's words made me stunned and cold over my body, even my heart became numb, and I couldn't react at all, because I felt that my whole world collapsed at that time, and my tears couldn't stop flowing. My heart broke into pieces. Now I knew the feeling of a broken heart like Elena used to feel in the past.