When We Were Perfect

Chapter 86

What is lost will be found

The broken will get fixed at some time

The dreams that we had seen are in pieces now

I agree that my heart was responsible for the chaos

May no one be as constrained by their heart as me…..

Previously, 

Just then a knock was heard against the door before it opened slowly revealing a nervous-looking Amy who stepped in fiddling with her fingers and then turning to look at Daniel.

At this Ozan also turned his head slowly to see the intruder, his light blue-grey eyes clashing against certain Hazel ones making Amy lose her breathing.

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"I have some files to sign at the office Daniel, will see you at night!" Silas said awkwardly not wanting to be the third wheel in the situation.. He decided it was better to give them some time especially for Amy and Ozan to get familiar.

"Sure, update me later!" Daniel said as he nodded before walking out of the room leaving the three people alone in their situation.

Amy's whole body froze in its place at the mere sight of his son. His dark locks resembled her, he was exactly the same child she had seen in the albums but this time his cheeks weren't chubby instead they were sunken. His eyes were the same as his father but in a lighter shade, bags were present under his eyes. Indeed he was a replica of his father, even in this state she could tell that his son would grow up into a handsome man. His face and body that should have been healthy were pale and all this could have been avoided if she paid attention to him in the first place.

Her heart hammered inside her chest, a thick layer of sweat forming on her forehead as Ozan stared at her curiously, clasping his father's neck with his weak arms that had red spots of IV.

He was looking at her like he wasn't afraid of her like Amy had thought. He continued to look at her for a while before looking back at his father.

Time seemed to stop at this very moment and everything around her drained out into the dull shade of black, she could hear her heartbeat booming rapidly in her ears. She watched in a daze when Daniel started to walk towards her, he himself was feeling a bit different but for Ozan, he had to take the step.

"Ozan, you remember her. She is the same person you had a photo of in your room and you once asked about her too!" Daniel started, looking expectantly at him. Listening to this, shame again begins to build inside Amy.

Ozan made a cute thinking face staring at the woman who was supposed to be here with him from the start.

"Mommy!" The little boy said in a timid voice, making both of them surprised and shocked. Amy gasped audibly, he knew she was her mother. A new feeling of profoundness began to settle in her heart for Daniel. Despite everything he still made sure that his son recognised her mother. On the other hand, Daniel was surprised to see that Ozan still remembered the time when he told him that the woman in the picture was his mother, he was a year old at that time but after that Daniel never tried to tell him anything about what a  mother is or where she was, even that picture was left in Istanbul when they left for New York. He didn't wanted his son to grow up feeling that he was unloved and unwanted by his mother.

"Yes, son he is your mommy!" Daniel replied smiling at him still surprised that Ozan didn't shy away seeing her like he always did meeting an unknown person but then again she wasn't completely a stranger.

"Mommy!" Ozan mumbled for the second time but this time with his bright smile that wasn't shadowed by his pale face taking Amy by surprise. Daniel cuddled him closer but he slowly reached out his hand touching Amy's face. 

Amy gulped the knot that was forming in her throat, closing her eyes and feeling Ozan's touch for the first time.

"Can I take him?" Amy whispered expectantly.

Daniel hesitated before nodding. She gently took Ozan in her arms afraid that he would fall from his hold, hugging him tightly but still being mindful of hurting him. To Daniel's surprise, Ozan easily went to her without protesting.

She gasped and felt goosebumps spread across her skin at the feeling of a tiny body wrapping itself around her body. She leaned in the warm touch of her son with a smile.

With no control over her heart, her tears began to flow as the reality hit her, everything felt so surreal to her.

The boy who was in her arms was her son, the one she carried for nine months and then just like a piece of something tossed him away.

Her entire body wrecked with sobs as she hugged Ozan closely like she wouldn't get any other chance to hold him. Tears after tears left her eyes leaving her exhausted and shaking her body.

"I am s-sorry!" She whispered, feathering Ozan's face with kisses.

"I-i am so sorry!" She continued to sob. Daniel sighed not knowing what to do as he stared at an emotional Amy and confused Ozan.

"No cry!" Ozan mumbled, wiping her face with his little fingers.

"Mommy, no cry!" He said weakly but his smile was so radiant and sincere that Amy felt her heart swell with warmth after such a long time. A sudden strong feeling of protectiveness, love and adoration filled her heart gazing at his innocent face that was a reflection of his pure soul without any flaws and faults.

"Let me take him back." Daniel offered, stepping closer, wanting her to stabilize herself. Out of instinct, she stepped back.

"No! Please let me hold him! " Amy said fearfully.

"You can have him back,first stable yourself!" Daniel said tensed that Ozan might get disturbed.

"No! I will manage!" Amy said, wiping her face hysterically, kissing Ozan's face and neck, making him giggle.

"Mommy will never leave you, Ozan!" Amy said, smiling at him, making a promise to herself to protect him with her life. This was the feeling every mother talked about holding their child for the first time. It comes as an instinct when you realize you are a mother.

Their little moment was ruined when the door opened with a knock revealing Dr Bursin.

"I am sorry to disturb you guys but Mrs Saritas you need to feed him soon as he will be sleepy again!" Dr Bursin informed with a serious expression.

"Yeah! I was going to!" Amy said, smiling at Ozan who was indeed getting sleepy.

"That will be good, a nurse will be outside if you need any help. I will come later to see how well it went with his stomach!" He said before nodding at Daniel and leaving.

Amy glanced at Daniel who was looking at her sternly.

"Should I call the nurse?" He asked.

"No! I will be fine!" Amy replied holding Ozan close not wanting to look into Daniel's eyes which were making her shiver.

Daniel rubbed Ozan's back, placing a kiss on his forehead with such a loving smile that wasn't present on his face all the time.

"I am going outside for a while Ozan, mommy is here with you!" Daniel muttered.

Ozan turned his head with a pout, 

"Daddy!" He whispered, holding out his other hand.

"Mommy is here with you Ozan. Like we have daddy's day, today is mommy's day Okay. I will come back soon!" 

Ozan's eyebrows knitted.

"Now! where is daddy's kissy," Daniel asked closing his eyes as Ozan placed a kiss on his face, making him smile.

Just by looking at them, Amy could tell that both of them had a very deep bond that even she wouldn't be able to have with Ozan. She also noticed that how Daniel acted completely carefree and different to Ozan. Without any doubt, Daniel was a dotting father.

Daniel placed one more kiss on his forehead before walking away not before giving Amy a threatening gaze. He didn't wanted to leave but he had to give Amy privacy to feed their son.

Amy sat on the bed clinging to Ozan who was looking at her with droopy eyes and a cute pout.

"It couldn't be that difficult!" She whispered to herself. Feeding a nearly two-year-old boy who was never fed like this before was a totally different thing. With a nervous sigh, Amy unbuttoned her shirt exposing her breasts and left shoulder. Ozan touched her skin making her look embarrassed, she was doing it for the first time.

"Are you hungry?" She asked, rubbing his head the little boy nodded.

Let's just say that with a bit of difficulty made him understand to suck milk from there. Finally, she unclasped her bra, letting her breasts in view. Settling Ozan in her lap, she brought him forward and he latched onto it sloppily.