His Little Pet

I awoke to slight banging on my apartment door. Who the hell is making so much noise? I get up out of bed and head towards the living room to the door.

"Kätzchen, are you in there? Please open the door."

Roman. What was he doing here? How did he even know I'd be home?

Lilith... of course. I knew I shouldn't have told her, I just didn't want her to worry about where I'd gone.

I stood a few feet away from the door, deciding on if I wanted to open it or not.

"Kätzchen please, I need to know that you're alright. Please open the door."

I stepped closer to the door, unlocked both locks, and slowly opened the door a couple inches.

"I'm fine, what are you doing here anyways?"

"I went looking for you, and Miss Lin said you'd gone home because you weren't feeling well. She also said you went to stop by my office, but you never came by. I wanted to make sure everything was alright."

I slightly closed the door a little more.

"Yeah, I was going to, but I didn't feel all that well so I came home instead. I'm feeling better now, so no need to worry. You can go now."

I started to shut the door but his hand stopped it, pushing the door open enough to make his way in, without actually stepping inside.

"You stopped by while she was there, didn't you? That's why you left without telling me. What all did you hear?"

"I don't know what you're talking about Roman. I just left because I was feeling ill. If you had someone in your office, I don't know anything about it."

He took a couple steps closer, now standing inside my apartment. Honestly, he looked quite intimidating standing there like that.

"Are you lying to me now Kätzchen?"

I took a step back as he took a step forward.

"I.. I may have heard some of it. I didn't mean to eavesdrop on your private conversation"

He closed the door behind him got closer to me. I felt my heart start to race faster as he did.

"I don't mind that you caught some of that conversation Kätzchen, I just want to know what you heard so I can try and clear things up. So, what all did you hear?"

I made my way over to the couch and sat down. Roman made his way over and joined me. I looked down at my hands the whole time, not able to make eye contact with him.

"Just that she believes you're the father of her son, that you want her to get you proof through testing to see if he is or not, and if he is that you'll take responsibility for him. That's all I heard, I swear."

He reached over and grabbed my hand in his and squeezed lightly.

"Believe me Kätzchen, I'm just as surprised about all of this as you are. I didn't ask her to come here, I didn't WANT her to come here. Ever. And I don't believe her about the child being mine, it's probably Cain's. Or some other guys for that matter. Who knows how many she slept with while we were still together."

I pulled my hand back out of his grip and placed it back into my l.a.p.

"But what if he is your son? What then? You already said you'd care for him if he was, so you'll probably just go running back to them right? That is what you've always wanted, a family right? So I guess you'll just leave me behind then won't you."

A few tears slipped from my eyes, just thinking about him not being with me.

"Yes, I said I'd care for him if he were my son, but that's only because I know what its like to grow up without a father. It would only be for his sake, I would never go running back to Airi."

He grabbed both my hands this time and turned me towards him. I still couldn't look him in the face though.

"And yes, I've wanted nothing more than to have my own little family. But I'd never just leave you behind like that, not for anyone. I want to have a family with the woman that I love, when the time is right."

"But you still love her, don't you?"

More tears fell down my cheeks.

"What? Of course not. I did, and a part of me thought I still did deep down. But after today I realized I haven't loved her for a long, long time. And I won't ever love her again, okay?"

"How can you be so certain about it though?"

"Because... look at me Kätzchen."

My gaze still fell down to my hands. He then grabbed my face in both hands and turned me to look at him.

"I know I don't and that I never will again because... because I love you, okay? I love you Kätzchen, and I always will. I'll never let anyone come inbetween us, I promise."

That made me look him in the eyes... It caught me completely off guard. I wasn't sure that I even heard him correctly.

"What did you say?"

He looked me in the eyes and smiled, his thumb c.a.r.e.s.sing my cheek, wiping the tears away.

"I said I love you Kätzchen. I should have said it sooner, I just felt conflicted. I didn't think that it was possible for me to love you so quickly, but I did."

I didn't know what to say to that. What was there to say? That I love him back? I don't know if I can say that right now... It's true, I know I have some really strong feeling towards him, but can I honestly say I love him? Even if I do, I can't bring myself to give that much of me away right now...

"I'm sorry, I know that's not what you were expecting to hear right now. But it's true, and I needed you to know that. You don't have to say anything, I don't expect you to say anything."

He stood up from the couch and looked down at me, then lightly kissed the top of my head.

"And if you'd still like me to leave, then I'll just go ahead and let myself out now. Goodnight Kätzchen."

He took and step forward, heading towards the door to leave. I didn't want to go though... I wanted him to stay right here by my side. So I reached out and grabbed his hand in mine, stopping him mid-step. He turned and looked at me.

"What is it Kätzchen?"

"I... please stay. I don't want you to leave, I don't want to be here alone right now."

He pulled me to my feet and wrapped his arms around me. And in that moment, I didn't want him to let go.

"Of course I'll stay. Let me just make a quick call to let them know not to expect me back at the office tonight."

I nodded in agreement as he pulled his phone from his pocket. I headed back into my room and climbed into bed. I layed there trying to wrap my head around everything that he just said...

I closed my eyes and felt the bed dip in as he layed down next to me. He wrapped an arm around me and pulled me into him, I then wrapped an arm around him as well. I felt his body heat radiate off of him, and I just felt so comfortable in that moment in his arms.

"Gute Nacht Kätzchen."