Please let me love you again

Xing xi ya closed her fists then strokes her neck down to her shoulder with a light pressure over she's putting in it.

She then open her palm gently massaging her neck using her hand and fingers. She was weary and extremely tired, that there's no any makeup product can hide her eye bags and gray under her eye, cause of tiredness along with lack of sleeping.

shortly after.

She tightly closed her other eye as if she was winking, while raising her arms above her head and yawn loudly, slouching at the chair, sitting like an couch potato, trying to relax her tense muscles.

Fatigue made her slothful.

The noiseless with only heart beat sound coming from hospital monitor made her took a quick gaze at the clock on the hospital table beside the lavender flowers vase.

Her face went dulled, as she tuckled a lock of a hair behind her ears. It was already passed midnight, with a stressful deep sighs Xing xi ya rubbed her head, thinking a solution what to do her several part time job she just skip in order to stay with him.

Fears is scaring her that her boss might fire her because of her absences. She scratched her head feeling extremely distressed.

Worrying it now, already giving her severe headache. She lean onto the chair and distressingly muttered. " Hayyss i probably lose another jobs after this, my life is a mess "

Sadly directing herself. She knew any excuse won't work out, at her position. She was born to strive for living, losing an job is one of her biggest worries.

Darting her eyes, she noticed something at the man laying down on the bed.

She straighten her back, and steadily fixed her gaze at the man who's sleeping deeply on the hospital, he's color drained out of his face, however he does just look like a sleeping prince from the fairy tale, too unreal and unbelievable.

Xing xi ya once again let a sighs, looking at him as she crossed her arms. It's been an another five hours since the operation done, but Li da wei is still unconscious and not showing any sign of wakefulness.

She stood up and checked his hospital monitor, when she saw it's working pretty normal. She sat down again relievingly, as she put her both ankles on the side of the bed, hands on her cheeks. She began to studied the man's alluring face.

She narrowed her eyes, her lips twitched, once again can't control herself not to noticed and admired the man's attractive face, his long eyelashes, sexy almond eyes shape, v line face, pointed nose, and perfect lips shape. it was hard to handle every time she has a chance to see his face nearer.

Lips pursed, as she amusingly mumbles almost beside his ear. "Wow is this all true, no surgery or anything? Why does he's face look like a animated real life person? "

She furrowed her brows then stroked Li da wei's face. " Look at this flawless skin, no scars not even a single pores, how crazy that is! is this person even a human? " Said Xing xi ya. Absurdly asking herself.

She's kinda sounded, praising and criticizing the man at the same time, her eyebrows knitted.While slowly leaning more further, wanting to see his face more clearly.

Since the man was sleeping, there's nothing to stop her from taking the advantages away from her.

Xing xi ya eyes twinkled, her lips slightly grinned. Many thoughts are running through her mind and boredom is forcing her to do something witty especially the exciting one. " This does not meant taking advantages on someone else,not illegal tho..... I'll just gonna check out and feel what kind of skin he have. " She shamelessly told to herself.

Silently standing up beside his bed, while slowly removing her rubber hair tie on her wrist and hastily tied up her hair into a quite messy bun.

Processing her shameless plan, was slightly making her legs numb. She took a deep breath to at least calm herself, shrugging her shoulder, as she then put her one hand under his pillow then finally yet really carefully leaned over down to his face.

When her face and his are too much nearer.

Xing xi ya gently runs her index finger through his soft skin, first admiring his skin, his eyelashes, next his bridge pointed nose, then accidentally move a little bit and unexpectedly got touched his lips with her finger.

Made her body shook, eyes widened opened, as if electricity runs through her vains, she out of so sudden, awfully fell down to floor because of it.

Memories kissing the lips she just touched, rapidly begin to surpass through her mind, her heart beat increased so fast, as her face slowly turned red, she gulped and harshly started to slap herself, picking up her senses.

" Idiot! Xing xi ya.....What the hell you're been thinking off!? Are you stupid this man... stole you're first kiss. You're dumb! he's an enemy!.....Yo...you have to remember that! " Said Xing xi ya. Nervously reminding herself with her heavy breath.

" Wait...." She asked.

Making her stopped punishing herself, she horrinyingly stared at the floor, hands on her lap, she finally corrected herself. " But i am the one who kissed him first, so that means i just gave it my first kiss that easily?, and mostly at this man! " She panickly shouted.

Her expression grimaced, while whole face paled.

Pouting her lips like an child, she felt so stupid and dumba*s hating herself.

Short after, she started to tweak her own hair instead slapping her face, making it really messy like a girl from mental hospital. " Grrrr I'm so careless i'm done!...i'm so done! huhu.....I can't face this man anymore! "

Can't recover from what the reality turns out. She slowly took a deep breath and begin to think again. " But wait again, I only did that in order to stole his watch from his wrist, so it doesn't mean i wanted his kiss, either to be close with him, right? " She reliefly said, trying to fool and to depend herself.

" However kissing him was not that bad....right? " She instantaneously asked herself. Confused for a short moment.

A few seconds of realization, she once again stunned at herself, she stood up quickly then slapped her forehead, shaking her head until her head felt the dizziness.

The dizziness made her fell down chair. Her gaze once again landed at the man, she grabbed her phone on the table and had a plan to took a one photo of him, she carefully move closer to take photo, not aware that Li da wei was already awake.

The man slightly move his fingers but Xing xi ya didn't noticed that, she's busy taking photo, he knew the person beside him was Xing xi ya, he can smell her familiar fragrance before. Although his whole body is not fully recovered, he purposely didn't open his eyes, he did felt Xing xi ya's busy doing something up to his face, he's not sure, however he didn't care at all. He just slowly move his hand, even struggling a lot, he wanted to grabbed Xing xi ya badly.

It hurt for him to force to move his body neither his hand, but he still raised his hand and grabbed Xing xi ya's hands and neck pulling her whole body at the top of his, before opening his eyes to see the face he's wanting to see for the past few days.

He grabbed her arms then pull it.

Simultaneously Xing xi ya fell down to his body, hands on his chest, her heart skip a beat, rooted at where Li da we's upper body, her eyes went shock, that her body become unable to move.

The color of her stated to drained away from her face, as her eyes wide opened, She blink her eyes several times, when she saw the man was slowly opening his eyes, which made them two stare at each others eye to eye.