The Void Between Universes

Change of P.O.V: Emily

After entering school today, I walked to class with Maya and the others as always.

Entering class I looked at Alex's group and I found that he wasn't in he's usual place but he was sitting alone on his chair.

When he saw me he singled to me to come to him, seeing that I get a bad feeling and my heart stopped beating for a second, as he had that aura around him and the look on his face seemed as if he made his mind to die or something.

Calming myself down I walked toward him, and as always I couldn't stop myself from smiling as I looked at him:

"Hi Alex how are you" I tried my best to sound normal.

He was somehow hesitating as he looked at first but he soon calmed down and said:

"Great and you"

I was getting nervous by that time so I asked:

"I'm fine so...why did you call me" I somehow knew the reason deep in my heart but I wanted to get hold of some hope but...

"Yes, may you please wait for me in the class room after school I have something to tell" he was nervous and hesitating and he seemed quit cute actually, but I wasn't in the mode to think about that as what I was thinking about was:

'....' Nothing my head short circuit, I think that I fainted for a second while standing there, it was great that I didn't fall.

Returning to my senses after a while I shouted in my head:

'Damn you Alex just yesterday you said you weren't ready to confess and now you are asking for my help are you serious just one night had passed, where did get your confident from I thought that I have some time to collect my courage and make my mind but were did this surprise attack come from" while I was raging in my mind, Alex asked me with a worried tone:

"Hey Emily is there something wrong"

"Oh sorry I just was spacing out a little" I answered hurriedly but I regretted it as soon as I said that, and as expected his expression soon changed when he heard what I said.

'Stop this nonsense idiot if thing goes like this you won't even be able to keep him as a friend'

As I was thinking about that I remembered what I thought about yesterday.

I couldn't really sleep that well yesterday not knowing what I should do, either confessing to him or helping him in his confessing.

"So Alex did make your mind" I had to make sure before deciding.

"Yes" only that word come out but when he said that with confident and resolute voice.

"Ok I'll be waiting" seeing his expression I also decided to help him to get happiness, so I said that with a big smile.

"Good bye" I added and started walking.

"See you then"

Even though I tried my best to hide it and tried to act normal, I couldn't really fake it from my best friend:

"Sigh What happened now" a voice come from behind me just as I sat in my seat.

It was Maya, she stood there with a frown on her face while looking at Alex.

"...Nothing it's just that..." I couldn't finish it, I knew that if I pushed myself to try and fake it, there was a big chance that I would start crying.

I felt that way because I've been in love with Alex

for more than a five years and then, there he was going to confess to another girl and the worst thing was that he was asking for my help.

What was even more damaging was the fact that I have already had that feeling that he might be in love with me, I thought that that was even obvious as he always acted in a different way around me and I see him looking at me more than any other girl, but it seemed as if all that was just an illusion, as it all shattered when he asked me to help him confess.

"That idiot asking from a girl that love's him to help him confess" it seemed as if Maya understood what happened as she said that while looking at Alex.

"Don't say that he doesn't know" I murmured in a soft voice.

"And who's fault do you think that is" Maya shouted at me as she heard what I said but she soon held my hand and said with an apologetic tone:

"I'm sorry I'm just so mad right now mad at Alex mad at you and most of all mad at myself as after all those years I couldn't do anything to help you, even though I was the only person that you told about your feeling for Alex, I feel like I let you down somehow, and now seeing him ask for your help to confess to another girl just make me really hate myself"

"Don't blame yourself for that it's not your fault" I comforted her.

"…so what are you going to do, I mean now is your last chance if you want to say something to say to him you have to say it today or you will regret it for the rest of your life" after staying quit for a while she finally asked.

"I don't know"

The rest of day was long and add to that how I was feeling while waiting for the end of school it was simply torture.

I did catch Alex looking at me for many times but as soon as our eyes would meet he would evert his I was able to see that he was nervous, and many other times I found myself looking at him but when he notice me I would always give him a smile trying to tell him that he doesn't need to worry.

Once I saw that everyone has left the classroom I separated from Maya and headed there, one I entered I saw Alex standing there.

As I started walking toward him I started thinking about all those years that I had been in love with him.

I stood in front of him while my thoughts were floating away, finally returning to my senses I lifted my head and saw Alex looking at me, I didn't even notice it before I found that my mouth was already open and that I was talking my voice was so faint it seemed as if I was talking to myself:

"you see Alex I really didn't want to say this after thing get like this, I only wanted you to be happy or that was what I wanted to believe but I…I couldn't I just couldn't, with every step I took her my heart was beating faster and I felt as if I was suffocating"

Staying silent for a while I asked:

"Say Alex do you know how I started helping couples to get together"

Change of P.O.V Alex:

"Say Alex do you know how I started helping couples to get together" before I could even find the time to answer she added:

"it all started because I couldn't confess my feeling to the boy I love, I tried my best you know I really did but no matter how much I tried I never was able to take that last step, each time stood in front of him my heart would start beating faster and faster and all the courage and planning that I did before that would turn to a big mass and all what I could do then was to do my best in finding a topic to talk about, that kept on going on till the day when a friend of mine come to me asking for my help in confessing to her crush , I found that really funny I couldn't even confess to the one I love and yet there she was asking for my help I almost laughed but seeing her serious face I stopped myself and knowing that she trusted me I tried helping her, and as I was helping her I was also trying to find a way to get closer to my love, I first told her to try spending more time with him and we did our best while trying to find something in common between them, I also was waiting for his answer as I truly wanted to know if that could help, and one day she come to me saying that he confessed to her, she was happy and she kept thanking me saying that he said he only noticed her and truly get to know her because they started talking and spending time together, and since then other girls also started coming to me some I helped other weren't lucky and get rejected but other girls still come asking for my help, I was happy seeing how I was able to help them and each time I helped one of them I would start making a plan to confess to my crush getting it more and more 'perfect' or that what I thought, because, guess what, by accident I found that he had someone he love and he even wanted my help to confess to her, when I heard that I was sad but I thought to myself that I he will be happy so I would just help him confess and be happy, that was what I decided but as I saw him today after he asked me to help him confess I didn't even notice before my mouth opened and started talking on it's own" when she made it here her voice was still faint but it wasn't trembling.

Hearing all what she said I didn't know what to say as I just looked at her:

"Emily you…"

But I couldn't finish it as my head was a mass and as she said:

"Alex I love you" her voice was trembling but I felt her determination from it.

But as soon as she finished saying that the determined look on her face disappeared and her face become so red and she murmured:

"I've finally said it but it's just a little bit late…" as she said that her eyes turned red and tears appeared on her eyes as she turned around and started walking.

I finally returned to my senses and I shouted at her back:

"I heard your love story, are you just going to leave without hearing mine"

As she stopped walking I kept on going:

"I've been in love with a girl since five years, in our first few years as classmates we didn't talk a lot together but in the last couple of years we started getting along quit well, and just like you for many times I tried to confess but I couldn't you see she's a popular girl and she have a lot of friend so each time I try to confess I think about that and end up thinking that staying friends is better than ending up as stranger because of that, and in the last couple of days a lot of things happened which lead her to believe that I have someone I like and that I was going to need her help in confessing to her, fearing that she may get the wrong idea and because of many other things I decided to confess to her today"

As I finished saying all of that Emily was looking at me with eyes full of tears and trembling lips.

Seeing her like that I smiled and said:

"Emily I love you"